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i did a dumb

So I followed Dr Phil's facebook page because he's hot (yeah I know) and then I started getting a bunch of ads for episodes of Dr Phil which I don't care about at all because I hate Dr Phil and his stupid show. IDK what I was expecting. But then I went a step further with my idiocy and started looking at the comments on them when I would get really bored.

That's really all I should have to say.

In not so stupid news, I've been doing a YouTube LP of Another Wonderful Life. This game is... tedious. At best. I'm not sure what possessed me to do this because I knew it was going to be like this going in. But here I am!

I'm trying to get the 'scholar' ending for my kid, but I have no idea if I'm going about it in the right way. It helps to build the food processing room and the milking room thing but I'm not going to have much money for those things because I'm spending all my time digging and trying to avoid growing crops and getting too friendly with my animals for fear of pushing the rancher or farmer careers. The dig site is not a good source of income to begin with, and I'm not even selling most of my dug-up stuff because I'm using it to befriend scholarly-like people like Daryl and Dr Hardy. I've started befriending Van and will work on Grant, even though I'm not sure if they influence scholar or not. It seems that I'll have to actively work at discouraging other routes, which I'm a little afraid to do. But we'll see what my child's natural inclinations are like when he is born...

I'm still not 100% set on which husband I want to go for -- I have all three options at max affection and am just collecting the last of their cutscenes (just have the winter scenes to go) and then will make my final decision. I'm strongly leaning toward Rock because I always do Gustafa and I recently have watched through a friend's stream playthrough where she picked Marlin. But Rock is kind of stupid, and all of his cutscenes make me hate him more lmao.

So IDK what I will end up doing. Probably just going with Rock anyway. I'm more concerned about my child than my husband -- husbands end up being pretty superfluous anyway XD Marlin's kid is too strongly dispositioned toward farming and ranching that I'm afraid of him, and Gustafa's kid is just a mess of depression and anxiety that I don't feel like dealing with. I have enough of that IRL lol.

I've been neglecting Scarlet Grace because I'm not sure what I want to do in it at this point. I kinda want to restart and recruit characters I failed to recruit before, especially getting Keegan who I learned is only available in Leo's scenario (and I already locked myself out of getting him). I understand the Monster Rank system a lot better now, and I'm more confident in my ability to power up my party.

In fact, I think I'll start that over right now, hahaha.

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Internet, and Scarlet Grace comes to The Strelitzia Inn!

So, our internet is being poop recently. Like for four days. It might be the router. Dens doesn't want to replace it. I don't even have $10 to replace it. Such is life. It's being super weird -- yesterday the connection was perfectly fine on our phones and the Switch, but neither of our laptops could get a good connection. Most of the time, no devices are working really well.

It's being "good" right now so I figured I'd write this up :P

I've been working on The Strelitzia Inn. I added a bunch of content to the Scarlet Grace page. I've got pages for Techs, Incantations, Roles, and Glimmer Sets. Very fun. Haven't really written the actual content for the pages, but all the programming and data are there, which is what really matters. I don't think anyone really needs to read a blurb about what Techs are when they're really just there for the list of techs anyway :P

I have to admit, playing all this SaGa makes me have a huge hankering to pick up Minstrel Song and Unlimited Saga again. Minstrel Song would make for a good new play diary. With unsaga, I lost all my save data, but I already did the play diaries for like hundreds of hours worth of content XD So I guess what I would do is just catch back up where I was in Ventus's scenario. I wouldn't necessarily have to play through all the other 6, either. Then I could finish those diaries out. But losing all that progress is so demotivating. But I'd also like to start working on the game script and character walkthroughs sections of TSI.

Same I wanna start working on TSI content for Minstrel Song. Mostly I just want to get a good compendium of player characters with all their stats and growth rates with PICTURES. One of the worst things for me in team planning in that game was the fact that I didn't know what everyone looked like since there's so many characters and some of them you can go entire playthroughs without seeing. In fact, I STILL haven't seen them all, I don't think. So it would be really nice to get pictures of everyone. It's very important to make the team match aesthetically!! Actually, I just like having a team of hot people oops.

But yeah. Our neighbor recently suggested that I make a website for her. She would pay me. But I don't want the responsibility of actually maintaining the site, and I fear that I'd end up having to create content myself for it, which is... something I shouldn't be doing and something I'm super uncomfortable about. But I have a feeling she will just be like "OK MAKE ME A WEBSITE" and then give me like no direction and no assets and like just expect a website in return.

Like, this was just a passing suggestion that she likely forgot about already but it's giving me terrible anxiety lol. But maybe I should force myself to do it to get a bit of extra money. I'll need some to pay for hosting for TSI next year (it's sad that I'm worried about getting $100 over the course of like 10 months lmfao). And maybe if she gave me regular money for maintaining it, I could pay to get cable internet instead of DSL...?

Wow, it's really hard to go back to normal text editing/entry after using vim all day hahaha. I wish vim-like input was the standard, but uh... I can see why it's not XD

Lalala. I've been working a lot on TSI so I don't really feel like doing anything now.

I found a drabble I had started writing, and it was Innocent Life smut.

Innocent Life.

What is wrong with me XD

(If you want deets, it was Cossack x Liberta non-con, even laksjdflakjsdflk)

I should write Scarlet Grace fic 9_9 Though IDEK what I would write about. Probably Daddy Lighthouse's backstory. Speaking of Scarlet Grace and story, I really want to familiarize myself with the Celestials and their lore. The worldbuilding in SaGa is so delicious, but I'm so vague on everything in Scarlet Grace. But it seems like there's so much there. It's easy to keep track of the 'gods' of Unlimited Saga because there are none ^^ The closest thing you have is Iskandar.

I think the official guidebook actually has art of some of the Celestials, too. Maybe I'll start taking notes about them as I play from now on. I haven't done TOO much in my Leo game -- I'm mostly just powering up my party and saving the actual quests for later while writing TSI content. So I can start writing notes about the Celestials to flesh out the world more in my head when I get to those parts.

But SaGa lore just makes me want to play unsaga again :P For a game that's mostly just menus, it's such a robust world XD Maybe it's because it's the vaguest that I'm able to expand it so much in my head?

OK I gotta stop writing. Hopefully the internet is still working so I can post this.

Also I need to make unsaga icons. I miss having unsaga icons. I need Scarlet Grace icons too. Forget all the wrestlers XD I'm not even really into WWE anymore, anyway.

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the future of ME

Sooo guess what? My disability claim got denied again. I think we're getting to the like, final stages where I can't even appeal anymore...?? I can appeal this one, though. IDK wtf I'm going to do if it continues to get denied. Like, apply again from the beginning? I don't know what choices I really have. Destroy myself working???? Well, rather than get destroyed I tend to just get fired/quit quickly because... I can't... work... which is why... I'm doing... disability... but... YAY GOVERNMENT

Anyway, that means I'm not going to be able to stream for quite some time because we can't afford better internet. So I'm considering getting back into YouTube. But my tired old lappy might not be able to handle recording anymore. So we'll have to see. I also need to ~totally legit and legally~ get my recording software back. Everything died in the hard drive crash. Everything.

I'm considering doing Harvest Moon: Another Wonderful Life. I've been watching my friend stream it, and am reminded of how tedious and stupid it is, and I'm like "WOW I want to subject myself to this again!" because... you know, I'm so smart and cool. I could also do ChoroQ HG4, since I did ChoroQ HG2. And then I can always do Unlimited Saga for my like 13095283095th playthrough because I lost my game saves and need to develop them back up to work on TSI content anyway. And I need to ~~finish~~ redo Shepherd's Crossing. And I can always do RSG2 and RSG3. If I had a capture device I could do SGSG, but alas, no moneys. I was actually kind of relying on the whole disability thing to go through this time, which is why I picked up Scarlet Grace on Switch instead of PC. Well, that, and I was afraid it wouldn't run on the old lappy.

For AnWL, I was thinking to focus on getting the kid into a certain job, instead of just 'letting it go,' since that's... all you can really do in the game, so it would break up the tedium a little... at least in the beginning... and give me some kind of goal. But I don't know exactly whose child I want to have (lol) and what job I'd want to do and choosing that is hard and annoying lol. I think I want to go the scholar route, since it seems more 'challenging' than the others. You need to get some of the most expensive things in the game, which means working your ass off on the farm... but that also means influencing your child to be a rancher or farmer. Marlin's kid is already wanting to be a farmer so that seems tricky. I've played Gus's kid too many times already. Maybe I'll go for Rock's kid? But I hate Rock. But I've also never married him, so... XD

But yeah. Those are my things.

And here's THE GAME UPDATES

ROMASAGA3

I've been playing the crap out of this. After the harem party died, I played an Ellen game, and I got through a lot of it. Got the party filled out and headed to the Fire Fortress to grind out some power just because I wanted to (less because I needed to) and then decided I wanted to work on TSI stuff. So I restarted again as Sarah so I could find English names and images for all the monsters. It's coming along pretty well, though there's not much there yet. But it's fun. I also 'linked up' the item pages to the bestiary and stuff. Funtimes.

But yeah Sarah's scenario is annoying because Sarah grows so slowly and the characters I want are all late-game characters. Peony will probably be the first I can get to and even then I can't even get the Show of Wonders to appear... I don't really know what I should work on next. I might go down the Archfiend Palace tower again and reach the locked door or something? I can't do the Vanguard murder thing. I can't do Muse's dream. I can't do anything XD

SAGASCA

Ambitions is a ton of fun, I didn't know what I wanted to focus on so I just ran around to all the areas gathering up the gifts for visiting towns. Then I went straight for the library and now I'm going to go outside the borders to get Tissue Sack. I've been using Rico a lot but he WON'T FRIGGIN GLIMMER MIZUCHI and it's frustrating. I also don't have ANYONE on shortswords which is bad lol. I might go run to that... one... region... and see if I can't pick up Chichi, because she'd be pretty good for that, I think. I don't remember what her Acuity is, but I'm pretty sure her DEX and SPD are good.

POKEY

I've been... chugging away at Pokémon Shield. I don't really have anything to do in it really but work on my competitive Pokes, but I'm at a standstill because I can't get a Spritzee or Aromatisse with Aroma Veil, and this is like... the cornerstone to my entire team I planned out. I guess I could work on a Singles team but... ugh, Singles. On Wednesdays I've been playing with friends and doing raids, which has been pretty fun.

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Just realized (or rather, found out after forgetting for like the 10th time) that Mega Man 11 is only going to be $29.99 at launch. So I was able to pre-order it. As petty as it sounds, I hope Scarlet Grace doesn't come out for a while in English so I can try to save up for it and play it day-1. I don't want to miss out on that excitement even if it means everyone else has to wait XD It's probably going to be a full $60 game, since it had that kind of pricing in Japan (and the original version was a full-priced game and this is like a DX edition).

Also, the additional stories (CONNER!!!) for Cytus 2 were on sale for Rayark's 7th anniversary (... damn, should have checked if VOEZ was having a sale, too!) so I splurged and bought those. Now I have less than $10 to my name and probably won't get any more money until next year :(

Speaking of sagasca, I've been really wanting to draw Urpina recently??? But LOL putting effort into something.

Actually, it would be a lot easier if I could keep my tablet out all the time. Moving around a lot and having to use the laptop, I have to keep it packed away and get it out of my bag every time I want to use it. When I used to have the Wacom just plugged into my desktop, I would draw all the time. I guess I could start getting the tablet out as part of my 'setting up the laptop' routine, but I also don't have enough USB ports to handle all the things I set up. Well, I guess I situationally use the microphone so I could plug in the tablet to the right port and just swap out the mic when I need to (since I don't move the mic itself from the desk where I use it).

HMMMMMM

Also I went on FurAffinity and had a PM from someone wanting to know how I was doing. Haven't been on the site in years. And they just sent the PM yesterday! Got a bunch of other PMs over the last couple years asking if I do free requests or if I still do commissions... oops. Maybe I should start drawing regularly again and get back into the online furry community while I'm at it.

Who are some good furry characters I could draw? Boston?? XD Actually... I would love to draw Boston. Need to rework my old OCs too. Ahh, now I feel like drawing. It's too late in the day, though. I'll have to try to remember to start setting up the tablet with the laptop, even though it's annoying. Actually, I've cleared out a bunch of stuff from my bag (as in, three notebooks, that's it XD) so I could probably put it in the same pocket as the laptop itself, and then put the pen and pen holder in the pocket I put everything else in (instead of having the pen in one of the like... actual pen/pencil slot things on the inside of the bag). Then everything would just be RIGHT THERE.

Mahahahahaha, I am a genius...

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Sooo X bought us both the Agarest games and I knew nothing about them going in. When searching for the release order of the three games, I learned it was like... some kind of booby waifu game, which I did not expect.

The first character you meet is like... an 8-year-old who even has a CG of being cute or something and I literally thought the small child was going to be a love interest and the game was going to have you make babies with this kid and write it off as "well she's an elf so elf children are really like adult humans" or something even though she acts like a kid.

But it didn't end up being like that and there's actually a story. It's pretty much what you would expect from an eroge except this isn't an eroge. Or maybe it originally was and this is one of those eroge-made-into-playstation-game kind of deals? But I didn't think that was the case.

But yeah basically Big Titty Goddess gives you super awesome powers for literally no reason and follows you around until you meet Tsundere Girl Who Can't Dress Herself whose clothing is literally falling off at all times. And the little girl is following you around too for some reason. Oh yeah and some other titty girl who is supposed to be a 'seer' but for some reason can only think of thoughts of you.

As cheesy as the setup is, it's pretty cool for a game so far. It's one of those 'there's 23958230958 types of items can you grind them all?!' games it seems. The battle system is a lot of fun; it's an SRPG where you can make formations with characters to 'link' them up and combo techniques together, with various layers of combo things. Enemies seem pretty tough so you have to be strategic (at least on Hard Mode).

In other "news," I finished my playthroughs of Mega Man X5 to get all the cheevos. Well, I didn't get this one that is basically 'restart the game over and over until RNG gives you this 0.1% chance event" which I guess I'll just hope to stumble upon in future playthroughs or eventually sit and grind it out. I actually did it on the original Playstation version when there was no reward lol.

Overall I have to say I really like X5 a lot and am sad I dismissed it over time because of popular opinion and the whole revisit thing. Revisits are just a part of X5 and X6; they're designed with that in mind.

I started X6 and it's such a mess. I'm playing on Hard mode which is even more of a mess and there's stuff that makes no sense at all. I have a feeling it will take a really specific route (so for now, a lot of trial-and-error) to be able to make it through this. I went to the Laser Institute first since it's very short and I wanted to get the guard shell thing, but it doesn't guard against the Nightmares' orb things so it's pretty much completely useless for anything I would want to use it for. Guess it will be useful in some other parts but... the main projectile dangers are the Nightmares so...

After that I went to Central Museum to see my love Scaravich but it ended up being really stupid. I also accidentally went into the alternate stage path and ended up rescuing Zero instead of defeating Scaravich, so I still have no functional weapons and now there are Zero viruses jumping around everywhere. Since the Museum was overcrowded with Nightmares, I went to the ... ice... level... and remembered how stupid that stage is... so i think I'm just going to restart the entire game lol. I might go for the trash compactor stage first since I remember the rescues not being too bad as long as you move slowly/carefully so that the Nightmares see you before the wounded guys. And then hopefully the anchor thing you get from that stage will be a decent enough weapon to fight the Nightmares in the Museum...?

I was thinking of also going to Inami Temple or Amazon before Museum, since Yammar Option is always great, and the bubble thing you get from Turtloid might be helpful in the Museum since there's a lot of... going up. The anchor might help against the totem poles. Yammar Option... I don't really know how helpful it will be. It seems to be good against the Nightmares in Normal mode from watching Spectre stream the game, but IDK if they have more HP or weapons do less daamge or something in Hard Mode.

Anyway, the Museum is a bad first option, and now that Zero Virus is everywhere I definitely think it's time for a reset. I may as well just go to Amazon, Inami, and trash (I have no idea what that stage is actually called LOL) and get those items there. I'll also get some parts and raise X's hunter rank, so maybe he'll have a better time of trying to survive the Museum anyway.

I want to go to the fire level last just so I'm more prepared for it, but I also don't want Nightmare Effects and Viruses (Virii?) buffeting me from all directions... I also have no idea how good Heatnix's weapon is, so IDK if it's worth going there earlier.

Um, I also played Scarlet Grace quite a bit more. Urpina is amazing. I messed up getting Roh Sung so now I'm using Francis. Some really messed up stuff happened. I need to write a diary entry about it lol.

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scorlet grach

Our internet went out today for a while so I pulled out the ol' Vita and played Scarlet Grace and like THIS GAME IS SO ADDICTING and I forgot how bamf Ogniana was even when you first get her???

I also am having Urpina wield an axe which is surprisingly effective. I also noticed that characters hold their weapons in different ways, like... when they are idling or whatever? Like they didn't just use the same or similar poses. I had Yamato and Urpina in the front of formation both with greatsword and noticed Urpina holds hers sideways so the blade is horizontal, while Yamato holds it up and down like that... traditional kendo position lol.

I've been working nonstop on the unsaga site for a while that I kinda feel like just taking a break and playing games. We were supposed to play Tree of Savior today but the internet died so :( now it's a bit late. I might just lay in bed and play sagasca the rest of the night loolllll. I want to get to Rohsung >_>

OH AND UH THAT ONE GUY BUILDING THE TOWER WHO "USED TO SELL CHURROS" OR WHATEVER LOLOLOL IN THE GUIDEBOOK IT HAS LIKE A FULL BODY ART OF HIM AND HE HAS LIKE A WEIRD BUCKET ATTACHED TO HIS HIP FULL OF CHURROS

But uh yeah I actually finally made the blacksmith calculator thing:

thaao.net/unsaga/extra/?p=smithcalc

o____o

oh and today I went to the Dr and she literally cheered when I said I didn't have any suicidal intentions for a month LOL like she put her hands up and said yay. And I'm going to be changing meds some more again. Like, I'm hoping to get it down where I just constantly chug prozac and nothing else? Like, I really don't like taking lots of things.

Sometimes it feels kind of patronizing when doctors/therapists congratulate me for doing like... basic things... but at the same time like those things are kind of an accomplishment for me and I still cannot come to terms with that LOL. Like uh I remember the first time I went to that office I couldn't even tell the person my name and they like had to call some kind of help line thing LOLLLL and then it took me like many hours to do the paperwork because I was afraid to tell anyone the noises were distracting me and I couldn't focus. So I guess like... not killing myself and having a normal visit to the office is like... a big improvement??? It took me 2 years but now I can walk into buildings and say my name!!!!!!!!

Also I need to stop drinking caffeine but like................... LOL

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So Romancing SaGa 2 is being released in English on Steam &c in less than a week! And Mega Man 11 is coming in a year. Get hype get hype!!!

I've also finished the entire play diary of the first ROCKMAN, which is over here. And Harvey is coming along well, too.

I'm at a bit of a crossroads on what I want to do about RSG2 when it's released, though. I don't know if I want to do my first play diary as a blind run, or play on my own through once and then do a play diary later. None of my play diaries have really been blind runs yet, so that would be cool.

At the same time, I'm wanting to get back into Scarlet Grace, and I already started a new game (yet again) in it and have been having fun. I don't really think I can juggle Scarlet Grace, ROCKMAN2, Romancing SaGa 2, AND Save the Homeland all at once...

At the same time, though, I've been thinking that I should stop trying to 'force' the play diaries and instead of trying to make sure I get some of each 'current' one up at a time, just play what I want when I want and then update as I go. When I try to force them I get extremely discouraged and end up doing nothing because all my motivation disappears and I get super depressed about it lol. I kinda had a tiny version of this problem in my first playthrough of Scarlet Grace, and it got a lot better once I stopped trying to force it.

So I might go ahead and try to keep all four playthroughs "active," but instead of forcing myself to work on one if I haven't done it in a while, just go ahead and do a lot of one if that's what I feel like doing. That will keep things from going to the wayside like they did with Tokimeki Memorial 3, which was fun but I kept forcing myself to work on it when I wasn't feeling it, and Final Fantasy V which was terribly boring to write for anyway and ended up killing a lot of my enthusiasm for the entire site in general.

I also am faced with the conundrum of deciding whether to get RSG2 on Steam or Vita. Both are nice, overall I think I like having games on PC more, but I also only have one game on Vita and was kind of looking forward to this being my second. But at the same time, I'd rather play on PC, hahaha. Though there are some advantages to being able to play on Vita, like... not having to sit at the computer lmao.

I'm hoping that they decide to surprisingly release Scarlet Grace in English and do what they did with RSG2 and throw it onto other platforms. The game was made in Unity, which is pretty much made for easy multiplatform release/porting, so it shouldn't be too hard, right? The game would probably run better on PC than Vita anyway.

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So uh, most of my game updates are going to be at my site's blog from now on. But I'll try to mention it here...?

Recently I started Lufia II and Pokémon Ultra Sun, and I talked about those here. Not that there's really much to it yet since I just barely started both.

Tonight is NXT Takeover and IDK how much I'm really going to pay attention, so I might just play pokey while listening to it. Tomorrow is Survivor Series which is kind of exciting, but kinda like TLC, I'm not really interested in like... anything that's happening there except for the cruiserweight title match but my brother and I both have a feeling Enzo is just going to be a little shit and cheat to retain the title so I'm not super hyped for it. I'm kinda excited for the women's 5v5 but at the same time I don't really like 5v5 because there's too much crap going on at once and I just get overwhelmed lmao.

I don't really care about Kurt Angle and Triple H and stuff and like... yeah, none of my favs are really doing anything AFAIK. I'm secretly hoping for the near-0% chance event that Neville comes back as a surprise during the Kalisto/Enzo fight though. I would be crying on the floor hahahaha.

Oh, and before I talked a bit about liking Enzo and not liking Eric Arndt, and after watching the episode of Ride Along with him and Cass, I'm even more convinced that I really can't stand Eric Arndt... but I'm also a lot more able to separate the two of them in my head, because Enzo is actually pretty different from the actor that portrays him, so I think I'm a little more comfortable liking Enzo now.

I posted another blog on my site though, asking for opinions on which SaGa title I should return to next: unsaga (Ventus/final) or sagasca (Urpina). If you have opinions, let me know~~

I don't know why I act like more than one person reads these entries LOLLL

Maybe I'll post on Twitter about it? A lot of people SEE my tweets but I feel like no one actually is interested in them hahaha. XD

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It seems like lj's new TOS broke DW because too many people were rushing here at once or something hahaha.

I'm almost caught back up to where I realized I wasn't taking any screencaps at all in Laura's scenario lol.

I haven't played with Urpina in a couple of days, but I missed out on a bunch of the characters I was planning on having in my final team. I think I may have talked about this already...? So I'm just kinda picking the best from who I do happen to find, and I'm not going to "try" for any characters from here on out. There are just SO many options and so many missable things in this game, which is both good and bad, but I do have a nice team of 9 and am looking for a 'male' mage for the party now, as the only role I don't really have filled. Though I did look through the characters and it seems there's only one even left available, and getting him seems to require some pretty specific choices, so I MIGHT try for him when I get to that turning point, but I'm also not wanting to look at guides much, so...

Also Urpina has like a million endings or something X_X; Leo only had two and it was based solely on your decision just before the end. Urpina's different endings are impacted as early as finishing the little intro chapter of her story it seems.

But I'm really trying not to look at the guide too much lol. I just looked more when I couldn't find the characters in the locations they were supposed to be, and realized I missed out on a lot of stuff.

I might start writing the Laura scenario play diary later today. I have a looootttt to write because I pretty much am going to be done with the entire story except the last couple of adventures lol. I should probably upload the Urpina caps and start on those, too, because it will take forever...

I've been having a hankering to play SaGa 1 or SaGa 2 recently. I want to make play diaries of them eventually, but I don't want to start them right now, so maybe I'll just play through one of them for fun. I've cleared SaGa 1 a few times, but never SaGa 2, though I've gotten pretty far. Or maybe I should play SaGa 3 even though I ... really don't like it that much haha.

I might actually start the TokiMemo play diary this week, too. Especially since I'll probably get my book today. I'm kinda slowing down on the website because I've been feeling burned out and a friend and my therapist recommended I pace myself better and not put too much pressure on myself.

Also, I mentioned that I looked for a job the other day and my therapist was like shocked and seemed hesitant to accept that and was saying more stuff about how I have to do stuff at my own pace.

In one way I still feel kind of... weird/bad/tired about being treated like a "severe" case (IDK if I mentioned this but I was also instructed to take all sharp objects out of my room lololol) but at the same time it's a bit... reassuring/validating that... I'm not just lazy/stupid and I have serious problems that make it difficult for me to find and maintain jobs and complete tasks and maintain interpersonal relationships and stuff.

Oh, Joe was in town this week and we played Catan yesterday and it was fun but a little awkward, and I guess he and his wife got a divorce, but I didn't know, and I asked them if they were planning on having any kids (which I know is an obnoxious question, but we were already talking about kids/pregnancy so it was not like super random?) and then he was like "oh about that" and I felt terrible, but I guess it was a civil parting, they just realized marriage wasn't for them and are still friends and still work/live together? Er, they might not live together anymore, but I think they still work at the same school (idk lmao I don't ask about details on anything so I never know anything).

Anyway, yeah, that was weird, and we talked about Star Trek which is good and now I feel like watching Trek but I don't because I hate watching things and I'm playing like three SaGa games right now and feeling like starting another for fun and starting Tokimemo and like... lol. And I feel like drawing recently, too -- I want to be able to make a coloring book for dens for his birthday, which is over two months away, but making an entire book's worth of drawings could easily take two months or more, so I should get started on it. Probably I should dedicate at least one day a week to it, and I don't want to do it when he's around because I want the contents to be a surprise (though I could easily hide it from him when he's around anyway since it's not like he looks at my computer screen that much and his eyesight is very poor so he hardly can see anything on it anyway, and I can just zoom or minimize when he's near so he can't see what it is... actually I might be more motivated to work on it around him, so... maybe I'll start doing that...)

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OK I finally got around to adding everyone back and looking at your journals and stuff here lol. I didn't have internet for 3 days. Now I'm at dens. I can't remember if I like... talked about this already.

I've been playing a lot of Scarlet Grace because it's like the only thing I could really do without internet LOL and uhhhhh I'm kinda mad at it XD Not really but... I made a list of all the characters I wanted to recruit and the place where you get them (like the province only) so I could try for them without too much spoilers...

But uh...

Your choices in this game seem to DRASTICALLY change things and you can easily just get locked out of TONS of content because your response in a conversation wasn't the right thing or whatever lol. And when I wasn't able to find a couple characters, like ones who were listed specifically as Act I (Urpina's story is divided into three acts) I like... looked at the little walkthrough outline for what I had finished and realized just how much I missed.

I mean, it's like... by missing some stuff you get to see other stuff so it's like... not like you're just... missing out and not getting anything else, it's just that there are so many different ways it can go and this means completely missing out on recruitable characters and stuff and like uh ALL THE CHARACTERS I WANTED I either missed or can't get til like... the very end of the game apparently so?? I don't know what I will do now XD

Even though I was so mad about having to completely restart Laura's scenario I like... already feel like playing again LOL. Usually that kind of thing like makes me super discouraged and not want to touch a game for a long time but... I just really like unsaga or something hahaha.

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no internets

Sooooo my internet has been out for over 24 hr lololol I die.

I'm at the library now.

Also, I was playing unsaga yesterday since there was no internet, figuring I'd just make a bunch of progress in my playthrough...

Well, apparently if you're not connected online, screenshots just... DON'T SAVE to the OneDrive folder?????????? Like I figured they'd still save there and then like... upload later when you have a connection but instead it just doesn't even take the screenshots at all. So I got like... almost entirely through Laura's story (I got all the EGs lol) and didn't get a single screencap. So, uh, I guess I'll just start Laura's scenario over from the beginning later for the play diary X_X

So without internet I had no idea what to do with myself, other than like... eat. So I ended up playing Scarlet Grace, and it's really fun. So I think I might put unsaga off for a while since I'm frustrated with it and just play sgsg right now? IDK LOL. I came to the library just to do KA and catch up on imsaga and 3gks... I thought there was going to be more imsaga to do but I reached my limit in the current event and can't really beat the next trial, so... I don't have anything to do now XD

My entire week was so messed up lol X_X Well, it's still messed up. It won't be normal again until like... Monday.

lol also now that I've arrived here, it's storming and it's supposed to be thunderstorms until like... tonight. So I'll have to walk home in the storms. Yay this week :)

Also it's like... noisier here than I thought it would be lol. Not as quiet as GPL. I miss GPL lololol. I'mma try moving to another desk, though. Because I'm very close to the information desk so I keep hearing voices and phones nad stuff and it's making me very anxious lmaoooooooo I'm so broken I can't even feel comfo at a library.

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things and stuff and woo

Hello friends.

Sooo I've been working on website and I have a really fast way of doing it now, and all I really have to do is essentially edit the rest of the entries -- all the images and everything are already ready to go, cropped, resized, converted to jpg... it's pretty much just c/p the diary entries and add tags while looking over it. I'm already into Armic's scenario so I'm almost done with unsaga (by 'done' I mean caught up) and then it will just be romasaga3 and sagasca which shouldn't be terribly long.

I think I started giving myself deadlines and stuff like 'I need to finish all this by the weekend' or whatever and the pressure made me kinda fall into depression again. It does not help that Thursday I decided for who knows what reason to look for a job, which is a super overwhelming and stressful thing to me, and by the end of the day I was poking at myself with a box knife saying if I just practice making little cuts I can work up slashing my whole wrist!!! But uh no it's way too scary I can't even like poke myself without freaking out lol.

The weekend was fine and I even did a Scary Thing and was ok (I went to craft store with Dens and it was crowded lol) and then today I have like absolutely no motivation at all and I think it's because I'm putting too much pressure on myself or sth, plus after Thursday I was putting pressure on myself not to be depressed again which... I guess was counterproductive lol. Thanks to Nans for pointing it out though lol. I was def weird on Friday because Dens kept asking me if I was okay, like "ARE YOU SURE YOURE OK" and stuff like... so many times lol. But I think I was just being like, super quiet and having trouble concentrating.

Anyway, after talking it over with Nans I feel a bit more optimistic and I'm going to not pressure myself and just go at my own pace with the website like I was, and talk to my therapist about jobs this week. When I went to my psychologist on Monday last week, he has to like... go over this list of stressors or something, so every time he asks me like... if there have been changes in my living situation, if I'm still happy with Dens, etc. and it ends with "Are you still unemployed?" and "Are you looking for a job?" And it makes me feel so worthless and embarrassed X_X I realize the reason he is asking is because those things are big stressors to people and like he has to monitor that but like... idk I just hate having it like... rubbed in my face? lol. Even though that's not what he's trying to do. I did get a grape lolli though.

I think sicne I've done nothing at all today and it's already 19:00 (and I got up around 9, so like... 10 hours of doing nothing at all) I might just play unsaga, because it's fun and it will kinad feel like progress since it goes toward content for the website. I think if I can resume the pace I was at before, I can actually catch up with all the play diaries by the end of the week, and maybe even start working on the programming tut.

Once I get the first lesson of the programming tut done, I think I'm going to actually pay for hosting and get the website online, and then try to add new content every week. I can easily do the editing and stuff when I'm around Dens, as well as playing games, so I'll probably do a lot of the initial writing while I'm at the apartment during the week, and publish new stuff over the weekend. I'll probably continue to post everything here first, but it will be like a 'rough draft,' and then the edited version will get posted to the website.

I might wait a bit to actually get the website up because -- well, not WAIT but rather it might take a bit longer because I think I'm going to program a thing that finds the most recent entries and everything for a front page, and maybe even program a blog. That probably sounds time-consuming but it actually would be pretty easy. I might create a like submission widget for myself so I can easily add new content without having to go and edit tables with SQL manually every time, but ... it really wouldn't be THAT convenient and I kinda like editing tables anyway. So I might just implement something like that if I really feel like I need it in the future.

Anyway, I've also been thinking about what I'm going to do next in unsaga and in the play diaries in general. I think once I get the website up, I'll finish up Armic and Mikhail scenarios, and then I'll start playing one tokimemo and one SaGa at a time. Three SaGas at a time was a bit... much hahaha. And I'll probably continue on with unsaga unless I get a huge hankering to play something else. Which recently I've really been wanting to play minsaga because I want to see Baldyhad again. And I've also really been wanting to get back into Scarlet Grace because it was really fun the first time and I'm excited to play another game.

But I also super love unsaga and am excited about playing through all seven scenarios and having a finished diary XD

In my next Scarlet Grace game, I'm going to be playing Urpina (that's what the comet gave me XD) and I'm going to try to focus on raising a team of 10 characters -- five guys and five gals. This way I can get the 'use a team of all men/women' bonuses more easily, plus I like having some substitute characters anyway. I think I have a better idea of how to really power up the party this time around so I won't fall behind like I did with Leo's party.

For unsaga, I think I'm going to do a 'no shopping' run with Laura. I considered trying to do the 'true' Weapon Collector's Challenge (no shopping, no repair, no martial panels) but I'm worried it will end up being too hard and turn into a chore to play. So I might just like, do that on my own, but not part of the play diaries.

And then with Judy I think I'm going to do a 'no weapons' run, where you just... can't equip anything in the two weapon slots. Basically the focus will be more on martial arts and magic arts.

I'm actually considering like... maybe some time in the future adding more challenge runs to the play diaries, like... even after clearing all 7 characters, like... just add some more 'bonus' diaries, like if I want to do additional challenge runs. I can't imagine ever getting to a point where I just... don't want to play unsaga anymore?

I was also thinking of what I could do play diaries of besides SaGa and TokiMemo. The other three series in my main five are Harvest Moon, Mega Man, and Ys.

Harvest Moon... I think I could figure out a way to do a play diary of that, I think. I think more just making a diary of entire play sessions, rather than trying to like... make a day-by-day diary would be better. I might actually make the day-by-day diary just like... little notes of what I did each day, but as like... extra content?? I was even thinking of like... hand-writing it with little doodles to make it cute.

Mega Man is lol. It's not really... that kind of game. But before ever starting the play diary thing, I was planning on trying to do (segmented) no-damage runs of all the Mega Man games. So I could make a play diary about that specifically? That seems kinda fun. Because just clearing one stage takes a long time for that. And I could fill the entries with all kinds of Mega Man infodumping and roboperving XD

Ys... IDK. I guess when I think about it, they wouldn't make for bad play diaries, but at the same time, the game is 90% about the action. It's like Mega Man with more story lmao. So IDK what I'd do with those. Of my top 5 Ys is like... probably my least favorite hahaha. I mean it's still top 5 though.

I also kind of want to start doing more videos again... I'm considering when I do the Harvest Moon play diaries to like... also make videos of them as I do them? It will also help me like... remember what I did in the game to make the diaries lolol. Oh, that would be like... super cute if I like... recorded each day as its own thing and then like... recorded myself drawing the little diary part XD Actually that's a super cute idea... I hope I can remember it.

I was also considering doing play diaries of like... games similar to the top 5 in some way, like Bionic Commando which is a lot like Mega Man, and The Last Remnant which is a lot like SaGa, stuff like that. Shepherd's Crossing. And just anything I really feel like I'd like to make a play diary about. But I want to focus on the top 5, and especially SaGa and Tokimemo XD

And then I also thought of doing a like play diary series where I like... do something like... play every single NES game ever LOL. And like write about my experience with each. And I'd try to play them all to completion XD That would be fun.

Anyway, these are just like... ideas lmao. For now I'm just going to work on getting the site up, finishing unsaga, starting tokimemo, and getting back to the programming tuts.

Well, writing this made me feel a bit more motivated. I'mma go play a bit of Armic's scenario now though. Prol won't be enough to write an entry because I'm just going to be doing random already-written-about subadventures.

Oh I just remembered I need to like... do the Innocent Life diary too. LOLOL. Well, I might not include that in the launch of the website hahaha.

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life update time I guess!!!!

I don't remember when I last really talked about life things but I started therapy two weeks ago and I have to go again tomorrow. I'm really nervous about it because I was a wreck last time, because I had a Hell Week and that was like... the end of it. So I just kind of stared at the floor and nodded a lot lololol.

Anyway, after I got home from that I just passed out and slept for like 17 hours or something. Then I kind of had a cold for like ... 1.5 weeks, and I think I still kinda have it, and then this past weekend was actually very nice. I was feeling like... super confident and happy which is like a thing I never feel??? But uh I'm back to feeling bad again but probably because I am anxious about the thing.

I want to try to bring up autism this time but I don't want to get like immediately dismissed again lol. But I think up until this point I've been getting dismissed because like... this is really the kind of thing I should talk to my therapist about??

I feel like I've already said all this here?

Also I'm thirsty.

I'm still moving along in Armic's scenario. I've gotten three L4 tablets this playthrough, which is ridiculous. Sadly, two of them were not helpful...

I started another SCARLET GRACE run but I think I'm going to restart. I accidentally like... advanced the story and can't go back,a nd there was a lot of stuff I still wanted to do... plus IDK if I really want to start another game right now. I mean, I do, but I also want to work on some other stuff and not be wrapped up in this XD

I don't feel like doing anything today though T_T Except for worrying lmao.

Which I guess is why I'm writing this because I can't bring myself to do anything else X_X

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Goodbye!

Well, after a lot of running around, we're finally here.

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Is this Ai Hanumu?!

Well, the party has gotten worn down from a lot of random exploring, so I'm going to give them a bit of a break. We head back to Thranici to check out the geysers, which have easy battles in them, so we can switch in a bunch of substitute members, and see what some of our newbies look like.

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vigilante contraband exportation

With two Wu Xing weapons, it's time to wander around some more and see if we can find more things to do. At this point I'm mostly just running to a region I know has unfinished business or I suspect may have something new when I run out of things to do in another region.

So this time, we're headed back to Jusitania. That's the place where we killed the queen and got the pirates drunk.

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Do you want to build a snowman?

Putting Rhea behind us, it's time to roam the world again and look for things to do and collect materials to make cool weapons. I mean, look for Scarlet Shards...

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FAERIES!!

With... whatever the hell that was we just did... out of the way, let's... go running around again. Because that's what this game is about. On this week's exciting episode, we're traveling back to Rhea. That coastal place with all the little "land pockets."

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After somehow setting off a volcano by trying to free a sea creature but it didn't work, we now have a new Wu Xing weapon, and there's not much left to do in the Thranici Province. I did go fight the battles in the other "Killer Stone" things but it didn't seem to advance or change anything, and the people of the nearby cities like Elhuacan don't seem to care that their town has been overrun with lava.

So, we're heading off to explore around again.

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Imperial SaGa announced a new "Role System" coming to the game, probably named after roles in Scarlet Grace.

It looks pretty neat, like you'll be able to customize your characters more... but also stressful because it seems like you'll have to choose paths. Hopefully they are transparent and different enough that it's easy to make the decision. And hopefully it doesn't try to like... randomize which one you get influenced by how you fight or something lol...

I spent like all day yesterday grinding X_X but I got all my reds 'cleared out' and I was able to upgrade my blacksmith to Rank 9. But I had to spend pretty much everyone, so I'll be nowhere near Rank 10 :\ I was really hoping to get closer than that.

But Boston will have finished studying his jutsu tonight, and I'll probably get 'stuck' in the current event soon, so I might start training him soon. Or maybe just wait for the next event to start.

Pretty much the pattern seems to be that there's a Quest Event that lasts two weeks, then halfway through it, a Combat or Trials Event will start, while you can continue to work on the Quest Event if you want. That will last the last week of the Quest Event, then both will end at the same time, and a new Quest Event starts. Combat and Trials Events seem to alternate as well. So since we'll be finishing the current Quest and Trials with the next maintenance, and a new Quest is starting, we'll probably have a Combat event start after a week.

I really don't like Combat too much lmao (it's the pvp thing). But you get healed after doing them, so it might be a good time to train Boston... but it would also be nice to have Boston available for the Combat itself...

Also, I thought it would be completely impossible, but I saw someone has already completed and uploaded an entire SCC playthrough of SaGa SCARLET GRACE (with Urpina). One nice thing about SGSG is that like unsaga, you don't even have to use the protagonist, so you could do a SCC with any character in the game.

Not that I'm planning on doing a SCC any time soon, or even maybe at all, but it's just cool that you can XD

I've sifted through all the pics of Scarlet Grace now up to Leonard's ending, so I just have to get around to writing the entries for them.