Sooo guess what? My disability claim got denied again. I think we're getting to the like, final stages where I can't even appeal anymore...?? I can appeal this one, though. IDK wtf I'm going to do if it continues to get denied. Like, apply again from the beginning? I don't know what choices I really have. Destroy myself working???? Well, rather than get destroyed I tend to just get fired/quit quickly because... I can't... work... which is why... I'm doing... disability... but... YAY GOVERNMENT

Anyway, that means I'm not going to be able to stream for quite some time because we can't afford better internet. So I'm considering getting back into YouTube. But my tired old lappy might not be able to handle recording anymore. So we'll have to see. I also need to ~totally legit and legally~ get my recording software back. Everything died in the hard drive crash. Everything.

I'm considering doing Harvest Moon: Another Wonderful Life. I've been watching my friend stream it, and am reminded of how tedious and stupid it is, and I'm like "WOW I want to subject myself to this again!" because... you know, I'm so smart and cool. I could also do ChoroQ HG4, since I did ChoroQ HG2. And then I can always do Unlimited Saga for my like 13095283095th playthrough because I lost my game saves and need to develop them back up to work on TSI content anyway. And I need to finish redo Shepherd's Crossing. And I can always do RSG2 and RSG3. If I had a capture device I could do SGSG, but alas, no moneys. I was actually kind of relying on the whole disability thing to go through this time, which is why I picked up Scarlet Grace on Switch instead of PC. Well, that, and I was afraid it wouldn't run on the old lappy.

For AnWL, I was thinking to focus on getting the kid into a certain job, instead of just 'letting it go,' since that's... all you can really do in the game, so it would break up the tedium a little... at least in the beginning... and give me some kind of goal. But I don't know exactly whose child I want to have (lol) and what job I'd want to do and choosing that is hard and annoying lol. I think I want to go the scholar route, since it seems more 'challenging' than the others. You need to get some of the most expensive things in the game, which means working your ass off on the farm... but that also means influencing your child to be a rancher or farmer. Marlin's kid is already wanting to be a farmer so that seems tricky. I've played Gus's kid too many times already. Maybe I'll go for Rock's kid? But I hate Rock. But I've also never married him, so... XD

But yeah. Those are my things.

And here's THE GAME UPDATES

ROMASAGA3

I've been playing the crap out of this. After the harem party died, I played an Ellen game, and I got through a lot of it. Got the party filled out and headed to the Fire Fortress to grind out some power just because I wanted to (less because I needed to) and then decided I wanted to work on TSI stuff. So I restarted again as Sarah so I could find English names and images for all the monsters. It's coming along pretty well, though there's not much there yet. But it's fun. I also 'linked up' the item pages to the bestiary and stuff. Funtimes.

But yeah Sarah's scenario is annoying because Sarah grows so slowly and the characters I want are all late-game characters. Peony will probably be the first I can get to and even then I can't even get the Show of Wonders to appear... I don't really know what I should work on next. I might go down the Archfiend Palace tower again and reach the locked door or something? I can't do the Vanguard murder thing. I can't do Muse's dream. I can't do anything XD

SAGASCA

Ambitions is a ton of fun, I didn't know what I wanted to focus on so I just ran around to all the areas gathering up the gifts for visiting towns. Then I went straight for the library and now I'm going to go outside the borders to get Tissue Sack. I've been using Rico a lot but he WON'T FRIGGIN GLIMMER MIZUCHI and it's frustrating. I also don't have ANYONE on shortswords which is bad lol. I might go run to that... one... region... and see if I can't pick up Chichi, because she'd be pretty good for that, I think. I don't remember what her Acuity is, but I'm pretty sure her DEX and SPD are good.

POKEY

I've been... chugging away at Pokémon Shield. I don't really have anything to do in it really but work on my competitive Pokes, but I'm at a standstill because I can't get a Spritzee or Aromatisse with Aroma Veil, and this is like... the cornerstone to my entire team I planned out. I guess I could work on a Singles team but... ugh, Singles. On Wednesdays I've been playing with friends and doing raids, which has been pretty fun.

So, I decided to continue my playthrough of romasaga3 even though the harem was ruined. At the end of the game, you have to leave one of your characters behind (you can have 6 characters total, but the battle party is only 5 characters, so there's always an 'extra' unless you're doing Commander Mode). So I just dumped the non-harem dude. So I still ended up with a harem party.

But now my problem is that not only am I underpowered, but I didn't fight much during my playthrough so my monster rank is LOW. It will take hours and hours of fighting to get the monster rank up to where I'm going to be actually gaining from battle and able to glimmer new skills.

And I think a big part of my problem is that I didn't save some of my more specific equipment. I definitely need things that make my party immune to gaze attacks and stuff. Equipment is a BIG DEAL in this game, and I kept selling all mine because I'm stupid and wanted money. I thought because I had really strong stuff I wouldn't need the other stuff, but sometimes you need to equip weaker stuff because of its attributes.

So I'm thinking of starting over. Not starting over the harem, but moving on to one of my other ideas. Either non-human or bamf ladies, strongly leaning toward bamf ladies. non-human party uses Sarah as the main and I'm not prepared for that. I saved in a separate slot once I passed the 'point of no return' so I can always go back and try to grind out the monster rank in my Monika game later. So the Harem party isn't completely dead yet. Or I may be inspired to play through again and make sure I can keep Herman this time.

Goals this playthrough:

- Get monster rank up as I go. I'm gonna actually fight everything I come across instead of largely avoiding battles.
- Save equipment for the end. Actually use the storage for anything remotely useful so I can take all the best stuff to the end while keeping inventory space open for new drops and treasures.
- Do as many sidequests as I can before entering the final area, instead of ignoring a few because they're too hard. Why expect to be able to beat the final bosses when I can't even beat sidequest bosses?

So now I gotta plan out my team! I'm not gonna do as strict planning as I did with the harem party. I'm just gonna take notes of glimmer types and plan out what I want to do with Ellen's starting choices. I'm not gonna care about growth rates this time, because even with poor growth rates you can still grow plenty. Herman has 0 growth rates in everything, and he was still leveling better than Trucks and Tiberius who have good growth rates. It's so much RNG.

GLIMMER TYPES:

Nora - Bludgeoner
Muse - Mage
Undine - Mage
Zhi Ling - Archer

Woo, forgot I'm using two mages. This might be a Genbu-focused playthrough. Also everyone I'm trying to recruit comes a bit later in the game, after clearing somewhat difficult sidequests. Except Nora, whom you can get at the very beginning.

As for Ellen, she's normally good at STR-focus things like Axe and Martial. But giving her a shortsword will actually give her the Jack-of-all-Trades glimmer type, which is pretty cool. The only two who can achieve that are she and Sarah, so that's interesting. Plus I can get a pretty good build with her using Mercury and Shortword, with a DEX of 21 and a SPD of 23!! WIL suffers, but even CHA is 25. So I think I'm gonna go with that.

Though I've found in my harem party playthrough that actually there are more dangerous female enemies than male enemies, so having a male sex god is actually more useful than a sultry siren character. Ladies dig the mustaches.

soooooo romasaga3 is TOMORROW huzzah!!!!

Time to plan out my partyyyyyyy.

I swear I've planned out this party like 5 times before lmao. Can't hurt to do it again!!

I'm not going to try to cram every last type of weapon into the party again though.

First let's deal with Monika. For the sake of having her be the center of the harem, I think it's appropriate if her Charm level is as high as possible. Basically make her irresistible.

There are two paths for this. Starsign needs to be Saturn, as it's the only one that boosts Charm by 2. But both Foil and None as starting weapons will boost Charm by 2.

Saturn lowers Dex and Agility, so going for a Foil build would try to balance that back out, making all the stats sort of mediocre. None actually raises Dex a little more. There's a big boost to Mag, but Monika's Mag isn't anything amazing to start with. But one nice thing about Cha is the really high chance to charm enemies with lunar magic, so she'll be using plenty of magic anyway.

SATURN + SMALLBLADES

HP: 70
STR: 17
DEX: 17
AGI: 18
END: 16
MAG: 14
WIL: 17
CHA: 25

SATURN + NONE

HP: 60
STR: 16
DEX: 18
AGI: 14
END: 15
MAG: 16
WIL: 19
CHA: 25

Foil will have decent AGI, which is nice, which can help with charming enemies faster. It's also Monika's "default" type, so it fits her nicely. Having the Fencer glimmer type won't be terrible, as it's an extra chance to glimmer smallblade arts. Trucks has the same glimmer type so it's not completely necessary.

None has terrible Agility but the Dex is a little better. I don't know if 1 DEX is worth a sacrifice of 4 to Agi. Actually, with how this game works, it's DEFINITELY not worth it, as weapon skill levels are much more important than base stats. WIL losing two points to None is a little sad, but I still think the 4 Agi points are worth it.

So it looks like we're going with smallblades.

Monika has poor growth in pretty much everything but Lunar magic. Her piercing and bludgeoning growth is a little better than the others, and I don't really have plans to put a staff on anyone else, so I might just throw a staff onto her for the heck of it. Then she can carry a foil and a shield and maybe a balm or something. Foil + Staff + ??? + Shield. Since her piercing is going up maybe a spear would be nice.

Herman is taking Axes since it's his glimmer type. And Ward gets the greatswords. Might throw a normal sword onto him with a shield, too, for times when I want him to block that way. Trucks will be on foils as well, but probably take bows as a side weapon. Tiberius is pure mage type so it doesn't really help to give him any weapons.

Ward also has decent axe growth, so I'll throw an Axe on him, too. Especially since it gets War Song. Greatsword + Sword + Axe + Shield seems pretty good for him.

Trucks has piercing growth out the wazoo so it wouldn't be bad to give him a spear when I need him to damage more heavily. Foil + Spear + Bow + Staff of Life? The Staff of Life would be nice since he's going to be the fastest on the team. Maybe I'll sacrifice Bow on him to give him a shield. That's something I can decide as I play.

Tiberius is just getting balms and stuff, maybe a Staff of Life to save on JP when I need to heal.

Yang Fan doesn't come til the end of the game, but He'll take up a bit of martial arts and take over with spears and smallblades, so I guess it will be nice to get that Spear on Trucks so he can glimmer stuff for Yang Fan before we get him. Actually, that's more incentive to put a spear on Monika, too.

OK so let's plan out magic. Trucks having Nap is nice, though his WIL is not all that great. He also has great Solar making. Ward is better off with a weapons crown so I'll probably keep magic away from him. Tiberius is of course Solar + Genbu. Herman is bad at everything but has huge WIL, so Nap would be good on him, too. That leaves Monika. We're already going with Lunar on her, since she can charm, and we already have two Seiryus, so maybe we should go Genbu. But Yang Fan has good Seiryu growth.

Er, I mean, Soryu.

Maybe a team of mostly Soryu would be nice -- would really help with the elemental field shifting, especially since it helps to shift it away from water against that one dragon dude.

OK, that's where we're going. We'll throw Lunar on Herman, too, just to give him a cheaper heal and balance out the Lunar/Solar dynamic.

Monika - Soryu, Lunar
Ward - None
Trucks - Soryu, Solar
Herman - Soryu, Lunar
Tiberius - Genbu, Solar

So it looks like we have everything planned out! Wow, that only used up like an hour of my time. Now to find something to do for the rest of the day. Gonna watch Full Gear later. Hopefully I can actually sit through it and not feel too antsy :P

SOOOO I guess just information sources for RSG3 are bad in general because I finally learned after trying myself that if you recruit Young Fang early (which is possible!) it's only temporary. You still can't permanently recruit him until near the end of the game, and there's no way to abandon the quest you recruit him temporarily for to run around the world without him :\

So I think I might pick up my old RSG3 game and bring it out of hiatus. Would be fun to do a few runs on the SFC version and then pick up the updated version on Steam when it rolls around, right? And it's going to be FOREVER until we get that, anyway.

In other news, my social security appeal finally got denied a second time. Apparently this is extremely common and like 99% of cases have to go to the hearing stage (which means two official denials first) before being approved. And, anecdotally, at least, I know this to be true because I've known people who were physically paralyzed or bed-ridden and got denied twice and had to go to a hearing.


And uh, one thing I wasn't prepared for: getting a hearing usually takes EIGHTEEN TO TWENTY-SIX MONTHS. So, uh, surprise! I'm going to be poor for a LOT longer. I thought it would be similar to the hearing I got re: food stamps when Medicaid deemed me 'medically frail;' that happened like right away and I was actually able to start eating food pretty soon after applying! I mean, it took a couple of months, but we're well over a year into this process and it seems like it could be two more?!

So, uh, yeah. Looks like I'm not going to be nabbing up Scarlet Grace's English version when it comes out, which I'm SUPER bummed about. I'll have enough for Mega Man 11, at least, though, but I'm at this point unsure if my computer will be able to handle it. Since it's already taken a long time to get to this stage, if my second appeal had been approved, I would have gotten over a year's worth of back-pay and suddenly had a bunch of money on hand. In addition to getting a LOT of things I need to live a semblance of a normal life, I was also going to try to upgrade (or rather, replace) my computer.

But it seems I'll be playing the same old early 00s games for a while longer.

Though in "good" news, you get backpay from the moment you first file for disability, which means that once the hearing is over (I'm... fairly confident at this point I'll be able to succeed, based on what my therapist, doctor, and attorney have been saying) I should get like THREE YEARS' backpay, and disabled people aren't allowed to save money, so I'll have to spend almost all of it in like one month? Which is ... stupid and frustrating for many reasons because I'd love to actually save money, but... it also means I can kind of binge spend.

I think some things I'd like to get right away include bedstuffs, a used car for short travel, some new clothes (I haven't gotten new clothes other than xmas gifts since like... middle school LOL), a noise-cancelling headset (for sensory sensitivity stuff), help pay for some things needed around the house with Dens since he's basically been supporting me like I'm his child for years now (and we need many things, like new gutters so the roof will stop getting destroyed, etc.) ...

But as for 'fun' things, I'll probably get a new compy and some compy accessories, a capture card... depending on how much I really have and feel comfortable spending, I might try to get Dens and I a Nintendo Switch as a birthday/xmas present, and get him Dragon Quest XI. It's his favorite series and he saw the trailer for XI and was so sad that we're not getting the 3DS version in the west, because that's the only platform he has available to play it. And I'd probably get Super Mario and Mario Kart for myself, and Smash, maybe, if it still seems worth picking up after the hype has already died down, since I'll mostly be playing with myself.

I also want to just... give my dad money...? lol since he's been supporting me through my entire adult life and even helped (and by helped I mean almost entirely, even if through loans) pay for my education that I never ended up profiting from. There's lots of stuff he could use that I'd like to help him acquire.

Uhhh so I guess for myself it's just a computer and maybe a Switch that is more for Dens lol. I guess I could buy up a bunch of little cheap things I've always wanted but couldn't get because even cheap things are expensive when you have $0. Like the Unlimited Saga manga or something. There's only two books! Oh, and I'd renew my WWE subscription. But that's like $9.

Oh yeah, I'd also start paying for a lot of my own things, like paying my own cell phone bill and things like that, instead of leeching off everyone else. Actually the main thing I'm looking forward to is that -- just being able to give basic financial support to myself, which will hopefully alleviate a lot of guilt and stress I have about being so dependent. Of course, it's unlikely I'll be able to be completely independent any time soon, but it still would be nice to feel less like such a burden.

So yeah that's my rant about that I guess.

Oh and I wrote another Iron Man thing: http://thaao.net/blog/?id=41

This month's flavor is misogyny.

Today is tharpy dayyyyyyyyyyyy

I've had not so great a week I feel??? But I did ok today. I kind of want to bring up the topic of disability but I also feel ashamed about it so who knows what will happen lmao.

But um... Imperial SaGa got a new update today~~ The old event ended and we got our prizes. I kinda didn't try too hard so I was only in the top 50th percentile, but I still got character tickets. There was also a character ticket for logging in on the day of the first showing of Romancing SaGa The Stage (which was 4/20) and then a character ticket for logging in on the anniversary of the release of Minstrel Song (4/21) and since the day switches over at 11AM here, I got both today haha.

But uh, the one from RSG The Stage gave me...



Undine!!! I was expecting a bunch of reds and maybe a purple so to get not only a gold, but someone who fits pretty well on my team is really cool????

Also, there's a promo day for Nina coming up, where 50% of all golds will be her, and if you get her, she's Rainbow instead of gold. It's still only like a 0.4% chance of actually getting her but... it's in the Series Gacha, so if I don't get her, I'll still get SaGaFro2 characters which is cool? So I'm thinking about trying.

Not that I have any particular love for Nina or something. I mean, I like her but I haven't played enough SGF2 to really know her so she's just a cool idea? BUT not only do I like her design, but she has really cool abilities that would be perfect for my team lmao (it boosts the magic power of anyone with wind, water, or earth arts and most of my party are characters with two or three schools of magic arts already and they all fall into that category XD).

Plus, she's the last promo, so I'll be able to see the news about whatever updates are coming next to see if I want to actually spend my Kr or not. Though since they just now added SaGa 1 stuff, I'm guessing they will go through SaGa 2 and SaGa 3 before ever getting to UNSaga...

BUT!!!

If they add SaGa 2 stuff soon, that means there is a chance we could get Dad or Mask???? So I'd like to have them??? But, uh, it would probably be better to wait until they've been around a while and wait for a promo gacha that focuses on him (which there surely will be). And the only thing they've added from SG1 so far are Human Man and Human Woman (yeah lmao they're just added generic characters now but STILL NO TIBERIUS).

But anyway, along with this event, they've added new characters. What's cool is anymore they don't only add promo characters, but just add some new gold characters to the regular roster, and give an increased chance of getting them in the regular gacha during the event, and they using them in your party will boost the event items you get from quests.

The two new golds are Mikhail and Holy Emperor, and in my Play Diary, I talked about how I was unsure of how to translate Holy Emperor because the common fan translation is "Holy King," but uh in Imperial SaGa she's definitely a woman, so I'm glad I ended up choosing "Emperor" in the end. Even though I realize "Empress" is a word, like... "Emperor" just sounds a lot less gendered than "King."

Um but the new Holy Emperor art has stupid boob window lol... The one thing I hate most about Imperial SaGa is that they sexualized all the women and girls in the new art. One thing I've always liked about SaGa is that it doesn't really have oversexualized female characters, but Imperial SaGa like... destroys that lol.

Like, uh, for example, Monica is a great character, for instance, who has a really interesting story and grows so much and despite being a princess is really badass and independent like...??? She's so great on her own and could have so much really cool art but instead we get like... Monica laying seductively on a bed with her tits about to burst out of her clothes like...

???????????????

Not only is this completely unrelated to anything she does ever in the game, and not only is it missing out on an opportunity to capture so many great aspects of her character, but it's like... actually out-of-character for her...?

And like... it's not like I don't like sexy art or whatever because I very much do and I even do really like the Monica art I'm complaining about because she looks very pretty in it but... leave that to the pervy fan artists? If you're going to make official art of your characters for a game please make them... somewhat... relevant... to... the game...???????

Like IDK there's just so much to love about Monica and we have this opportunity to get super cool new Monica art, new art of a great and interesting character that does a lot of things and has a really interesting story and has so many situations that would be awesome to see illustrated...

And she's reduced to "look at titty."

It makes me mad!!

Anyway, the promo character for the event right now is Ward! Which means new Ward art!!



Beautiful...

And see, characters can be hot as hell without being sexualized. If they're already sexy they don't need like... awkward sex poses and beds they will just be sexy anyway???????????

He and Mikahil (and probably Holy Emperor) are part of the story (it's about fighting Byunei) for the event but I just skip the story so IDK what it's really about lmaooooo. There's like a gallery mode where you can watch all past event stories and stuff so I figure if I ever care about the story of this game I'll go watch that. I still don't even really know the main plot of the main story because I just skip through literally everything LOL.

Oh and his Commander Skill is that he boosts the attack power of anyone with light magic arts, which in my current party is just Leon, but Leon also uses foil so his attacks are ridiculously strong right now (like just his regular Final Letter is doing more damage than Boston's super critical thing LOL). Though if I used Screwdriver I'd get Ultra Critical every time too (since it's effective against women) but I think the power of his Screwdriver is so low that just using Final Letter would be better? (Uh, also, his Final Letter is really beefed up).

Also when characters level up they say like little quote things, like each character just has one they always say. Leon says like "Follow Me" (but in a way that sounds much cooler than that??) And uh... Ward's was "You wanna take a job?" and I was like wtf why did they choose that?? And then I realized that's pretty much HIS ONLY LINE OF DIALOGUE IN THE ENTIRE GAME LMFAO

IDK why I get attached to SaGa characters when they are hardly more than visual character concepts LOL

But yeah the boss of the event quests is Byunei, and she's weak to piercing damage, so Boston's special art that he came with always Super Criticals on her because it's piercing damage (despite being a punch) plus is effective against Abyss creatures and characters (which means it always gets a critical, and using weakness + critical hit = Super Critical XD)

You can actually Ultra Critical which is dual weakness + critical hit, but you have to hit with elemental and physical weakness and get a crit at the same time so I've never seen it lmao.

IDK what to do for the next 20 minutes lol. I'm feeling anxious. I guess I'll do KA a bit and then pack up my stuff so it's ready for going to Dens or something. I'm going early again this week. I hope all the patterns get back to normal soon~~

Last time, we journeyed into the Devil Emperor's Palace to look for one of the Abyss Gates, only to find a sealed door that we can't enter for now. But with a teleportation seal that will lead us right back, our journey was not in vain, and now we're going to head out to find another Abyss Gate.

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Hello friends.

Sooo I've been working on website and I have a really fast way of doing it now, and all I really have to do is essentially edit the rest of the entries -- all the images and everything are already ready to go, cropped, resized, converted to jpg... it's pretty much just c/p the diary entries and add tags while looking over it. I'm already into Armic's scenario so I'm almost done with unsaga (by 'done' I mean caught up) and then it will just be romasaga3 and sagasca which shouldn't be terribly long.

I think I started giving myself deadlines and stuff like 'I need to finish all this by the weekend' or whatever and the pressure made me kinda fall into depression again. It does not help that Thursday I decided for who knows what reason to look for a job, which is a super overwhelming and stressful thing to me, and by the end of the day I was poking at myself with a box knife saying if I just practice making little cuts I can work up slashing my whole wrist!!! But uh no it's way too scary I can't even like poke myself without freaking out lol.

The weekend was fine and I even did a Scary Thing and was ok (I went to craft store with Dens and it was crowded lol) and then today I have like absolutely no motivation at all and I think it's because I'm putting too much pressure on myself or sth, plus after Thursday I was putting pressure on myself not to be depressed again which... I guess was counterproductive lol. Thanks to Nans for pointing it out though lol. I was def weird on Friday because Dens kept asking me if I was okay, like "ARE YOU SURE YOURE OK" and stuff like... so many times lol. But I think I was just being like, super quiet and having trouble concentrating.

Anyway, after talking it over with Nans I feel a bit more optimistic and I'm going to not pressure myself and just go at my own pace with the website like I was, and talk to my therapist about jobs this week. When I went to my psychologist on Monday last week, he has to like... go over this list of stressors or something, so every time he asks me like... if there have been changes in my living situation, if I'm still happy with Dens, etc. and it ends with "Are you still unemployed?" and "Are you looking for a job?" And it makes me feel so worthless and embarrassed X_X I realize the reason he is asking is because those things are big stressors to people and like he has to monitor that but like... idk I just hate having it like... rubbed in my face? lol. Even though that's not what he's trying to do. I did get a grape lolli though.

I think sicne I've done nothing at all today and it's already 19:00 (and I got up around 9, so like... 10 hours of doing nothing at all) I might just play unsaga, because it's fun and it will kinad feel like progress since it goes toward content for the website. I think if I can resume the pace I was at before, I can actually catch up with all the play diaries by the end of the week, and maybe even start working on the programming tut.

Once I get the first lesson of the programming tut done, I think I'm going to actually pay for hosting and get the website online, and then try to add new content every week. I can easily do the editing and stuff when I'm around Dens, as well as playing games, so I'll probably do a lot of the initial writing while I'm at the apartment during the week, and publish new stuff over the weekend. I'll probably continue to post everything here first, but it will be like a 'rough draft,' and then the edited version will get posted to the website.

I might wait a bit to actually get the website up because -- well, not WAIT but rather it might take a bit longer because I think I'm going to program a thing that finds the most recent entries and everything for a front page, and maybe even program a blog. That probably sounds time-consuming but it actually would be pretty easy. I might create a like submission widget for myself so I can easily add new content without having to go and edit tables with SQL manually every time, but ... it really wouldn't be THAT convenient and I kinda like editing tables anyway. So I might just implement something like that if I really feel like I need it in the future.

Anyway, I've also been thinking about what I'm going to do next in unsaga and in the play diaries in general. I think once I get the website up, I'll finish up Armic and Mikhail scenarios, and then I'll start playing one tokimemo and one SaGa at a time. Three SaGas at a time was a bit... much hahaha. And I'll probably continue on with unsaga unless I get a huge hankering to play something else. Which recently I've really been wanting to play minsaga because I want to see Baldyhad again. And I've also really been wanting to get back into Scarlet Grace because it was really fun the first time and I'm excited to play another game.

But I also super love unsaga and am excited about playing through all seven scenarios and having a finished diary XD

In my next Scarlet Grace game, I'm going to be playing Urpina (that's what the comet gave me XD) and I'm going to try to focus on raising a team of 10 characters -- five guys and five gals. This way I can get the 'use a team of all men/women' bonuses more easily, plus I like having some substitute characters anyway. I think I have a better idea of how to really power up the party this time around so I won't fall behind like I did with Leo's party.

For unsaga, I think I'm going to do a 'no shopping' run with Laura. I considered trying to do the 'true' Weapon Collector's Challenge (no shopping, no repair, no martial panels) but I'm worried it will end up being too hard and turn into a chore to play. So I might just like, do that on my own, but not part of the play diaries.

And then with Judy I think I'm going to do a 'no weapons' run, where you just... can't equip anything in the two weapon slots. Basically the focus will be more on martial arts and magic arts.

I'm actually considering like... maybe some time in the future adding more challenge runs to the play diaries, like... even after clearing all 7 characters, like... just add some more 'bonus' diaries, like if I want to do additional challenge runs. I can't imagine ever getting to a point where I just... don't want to play unsaga anymore?

I was also thinking of what I could do play diaries of besides SaGa and TokiMemo. The other three series in my main five are Harvest Moon, Mega Man, and Ys.

Harvest Moon... I think I could figure out a way to do a play diary of that, I think. I think more just making a diary of entire play sessions, rather than trying to like... make a day-by-day diary would be better. I might actually make the day-by-day diary just like... little notes of what I did each day, but as like... extra content?? I was even thinking of like... hand-writing it with little doodles to make it cute.

Mega Man is lol. It's not really... that kind of game. But before ever starting the play diary thing, I was planning on trying to do (segmented) no-damage runs of all the Mega Man games. So I could make a play diary about that specifically? That seems kinda fun. Because just clearing one stage takes a long time for that. And I could fill the entries with all kinds of Mega Man infodumping and roboperving XD

Ys... IDK. I guess when I think about it, they wouldn't make for bad play diaries, but at the same time, the game is 90% about the action. It's like Mega Man with more story lmao. So IDK what I'd do with those. Of my top 5 Ys is like... probably my least favorite hahaha. I mean it's still top 5 though.

I also kind of want to start doing more videos again... I'm considering when I do the Harvest Moon play diaries to like... also make videos of them as I do them? It will also help me like... remember what I did in the game to make the diaries lolol. Oh, that would be like... super cute if I like... recorded each day as its own thing and then like... recorded myself drawing the little diary part XD Actually that's a super cute idea... I hope I can remember it.

I was also considering doing play diaries of like... games similar to the top 5 in some way, like Bionic Commando which is a lot like Mega Man, and The Last Remnant which is a lot like SaGa, stuff like that. Shepherd's Crossing. And just anything I really feel like I'd like to make a play diary about. But I want to focus on the top 5, and especially SaGa and Tokimemo XD

And then I also thought of doing a like play diary series where I like... do something like... play every single NES game ever LOL. And like write about my experience with each. And I'd try to play them all to completion XD That would be fun.

Anyway, these are just like... ideas lmao. For now I'm just going to work on getting the site up, finishing unsaga, starting tokimemo, and getting back to the programming tuts.

Well, writing this made me feel a bit more motivated. I'mma go play a bit of Armic's scenario now though. Prol won't be enough to write an entry because I'm just going to be doing random already-written-about subadventures.

Oh I just remembered I need to like... do the Innocent Life diary too. LOLOL. Well, I might not include that in the launch of the website hahaha.

Since we're low on money but want to buy some new magic arts, we're going to head back into the desert to go to a place that I bypassed before.

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All my journal titles are like "things" and "woo" and "stuff" lol.

Anyway, went to the doctor today, as in Dr Nolan, and like... I'm kind of tired of everyone taking my situation so seriously even though... they are doing so... because it's serious LOL but I guess rather I just hate hearing "Well, with the severity of your symptoms..." or whatever because it feels bad lolol.

Anyway, I don't have to go for another 2 months and got a grape lolli. Also he was really nice and I like Dr Nolan a lot.

I also stopped by Dr Marlin's office (they are in the same building, like, across the hall from each other) to make an appointment because I've been having a tightness in my chest for like... 2 weeks lolol. And they were like uhhhh you should come sooner and I'm like yeah but telephone. Anyway they got me an appointment with a nurse practitioner tomorrow since I wouldn't be able to see Dr Marlin herself for over a week. I really don't want to go to the doctor two days in a row but X_X;;;

I super don't feel like doing anything today, like, not even playing games or anything. I've been exercising every day but I didn't today oops. And then I still haven't done KA today, even though I'm looking forward to the next section in calculus. I barely even was able to eat. Doing things is so exhausting?

I feel like I have like very limited jutsu points and going to the dr or whatever is like a special jutsu that uses all my remaining points no matter their level, and I can't get any more until I sleep overnight lolol. Except I always die at the end of the battles so I never get jutsu power up anyway.

I made some coffee but now I'm like afraid to leave my room to do anything else lolol. But it's cold now and I would like to pour it over ice and maybe put some vanilla cream stuff in it.

Me at doctor's appointment: Yes, I am doing very well and becoming more capable of managing my anxieties and stuff. Not really thinking about dying and stuff.

Me like literally 10 mintues later: I want to die and I am never leaving my room again and everything is scary literally everything.