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It seems like lj's new TOS broke DW because too many people were rushing here at once or something hahaha.

I'm almost caught back up to where I realized I wasn't taking any screencaps at all in Laura's scenario lol.

I haven't played with Urpina in a couple of days, but I missed out on a bunch of the characters I was planning on having in my final team. I think I may have talked about this already...? So I'm just kinda picking the best from who I do happen to find, and I'm not going to "try" for any characters from here on out. There are just SO many options and so many missable things in this game, which is both good and bad, but I do have a nice team of 9 and am looking for a 'male' mage for the party now, as the only role I don't really have filled. Though I did look through the characters and it seems there's only one even left available, and getting him seems to require some pretty specific choices, so I MIGHT try for him when I get to that turning point, but I'm also not wanting to look at guides much, so...

Also Urpina has like a million endings or something X_X; Leo only had two and it was based solely on your decision just before the end. Urpina's different endings are impacted as early as finishing the little intro chapter of her story it seems.

But I'm really trying not to look at the guide too much lol. I just looked more when I couldn't find the characters in the locations they were supposed to be, and realized I missed out on a lot of stuff.

I might start writing the Laura scenario play diary later today. I have a looootttt to write because I pretty much am going to be done with the entire story except the last couple of adventures lol. I should probably upload the Urpina caps and start on those, too, because it will take forever...

I've been having a hankering to play SaGa 1 or SaGa 2 recently. I want to make play diaries of them eventually, but I don't want to start them right now, so maybe I'll just play through one of them for fun. I've cleared SaGa 1 a few times, but never SaGa 2, though I've gotten pretty far. Or maybe I should play SaGa 3 even though I ... really don't like it that much haha.

I might actually start the TokiMemo play diary this week, too. Especially since I'll probably get my book today. I'm kinda slowing down on the website because I've been feeling burned out and a friend and my therapist recommended I pace myself better and not put too much pressure on myself.

Also, I mentioned that I looked for a job the other day and my therapist was like shocked and seemed hesitant to accept that and was saying more stuff about how I have to do stuff at my own pace.

In one way I still feel kind of... weird/bad/tired about being treated like a "severe" case (IDK if I mentioned this but I was also instructed to take all sharp objects out of my room lololol) but at the same time it's a bit... reassuring/validating that... I'm not just lazy/stupid and I have serious problems that make it difficult for me to find and maintain jobs and complete tasks and maintain interpersonal relationships and stuff.

Oh, Joe was in town this week and we played Catan yesterday and it was fun but a little awkward, and I guess he and his wife got a divorce, but I didn't know, and I asked them if they were planning on having any kids (which I know is an obnoxious question, but we were already talking about kids/pregnancy so it was not like super random?) and then he was like "oh about that" and I felt terrible, but I guess it was a civil parting, they just realized marriage wasn't for them and are still friends and still work/live together? Er, they might not live together anymore, but I think they still work at the same school (idk lmao I don't ask about details on anything so I never know anything).

Anyway, yeah, that was weird, and we talked about Star Trek which is good and now I feel like watching Trek but I don't because I hate watching things and I'm playing like three SaGa games right now and feeling like starting another for fun and starting Tokimemo and like... lol. And I feel like drawing recently, too -- I want to be able to make a coloring book for dens for his birthday, which is over two months away, but making an entire book's worth of drawings could easily take two months or more, so I should get started on it. Probably I should dedicate at least one day a week to it, and I don't want to do it when he's around because I want the contents to be a surprise (though I could easily hide it from him when he's around anyway since it's not like he looks at my computer screen that much and his eyesight is very poor so he hardly can see anything on it anyway, and I can just zoom or minimize when he's near so he can't see what it is... actually I might be more motivated to work on it around him, so... maybe I'll start doing that...)

OK so here's my like... Linux testimonial LOLOL more like I just wanted to like... idk, show some nice stuff about Linux Mint that I like and why it's a lot nicer to use than Windows albeit a little difficult at first? But not really if you know what to do.

( screenies and stuff )

I want to draw but drawing is hard. But I've posted way too much stuff and you guys will never be able to catch up on it all at this rate XD So maybe taking some time to draw would be good for that too.

IDK what to draw tho >_> I kinda wanna draw Fake Auron just because I said I was going to, and I wanna try drawing Isky? And of course I wanna draw some Innocent Life stuff. And I wanna draw Cid from FFE since literally nothing exists of him (or really that game in general). Maybe draw something from FF9 since I completed it recently XD And I wanna draw some Ys stuff, too.

I really feel like doing another run through Ark of Napishtim! I wanna try to do a 'perfect' save... but 100% this game is a bit ridiculous. Not hard, just super super tedious.

When it comes to choosing the difficulty, too, I'd have to make a tough choice. You can choose between Normal, Hard, and Nightmare difficulty, and then you can play in regular mode or Catastrophe mode.

In Catastrophe mode, most items just don't exist in the game, and rather picking up an item grants you its effects immediately. You can also buy the stat-up seeds and max your stats, something you can't do in regular mode.

But in regular mode, you can't max your stats because there's a limited number of stat-up seeds (you might be able to max HP though?). But you do have all the items to collect in the game, which max out when you're carrying 9. There are exactly 9 blue potions in the game (the rest of the items you can get unlimitedly), and getting some of them is VERY difficult, so having a complete inventory would be pretty neat. But at the same time, you're not on the hardest setting (Nightmare+Catastrophe) and your stats are not maxed...

But I don't really want to start playing it until I finish Innocent Life and I Am Setsuna at least. Plus I don't know if I could really work on such a file right now. It might give me a lot of anxiety lol. But A run through Hard or something just for fun would be fine.