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Apr. 11th, 2017 11:11 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
marchionessofmustacheIt seems like lj's new TOS broke DW because too many people were rushing here at once or something hahaha.
I'm almost caught back up to where I realized I wasn't taking any screencaps at all in Laura's scenario lol.
I haven't played with Urpina in a couple of days, but I missed out on a bunch of the characters I was planning on having in my final team. I think I may have talked about this already...? So I'm just kinda picking the best from who I do happen to find, and I'm not going to "try" for any characters from here on out. There are just SO many options and so many missable things in this game, which is both good and bad, but I do have a nice team of 9 and am looking for a 'male' mage for the party now, as the only role I don't really have filled. Though I did look through the characters and it seems there's only one even left available, and getting him seems to require some pretty specific choices, so I MIGHT try for him when I get to that turning point, but I'm also not wanting to look at guides much, so...
Also Urpina has like a million endings or something X_X; Leo only had two and it was based solely on your decision just before the end. Urpina's different endings are impacted as early as finishing the little intro chapter of her story it seems.
But I'm really trying not to look at the guide too much lol. I just looked more when I couldn't find the characters in the locations they were supposed to be, and realized I missed out on a lot of stuff.
I might start writing the Laura scenario play diary later today. I have a looootttt to write because I pretty much am going to be done with the entire story except the last couple of adventures lol. I should probably upload the Urpina caps and start on those, too, because it will take forever...
I've been having a hankering to play SaGa 1 or SaGa 2 recently. I want to make play diaries of them eventually, but I don't want to start them right now, so maybe I'll just play through one of them for fun. I've cleared SaGa 1 a few times, but never SaGa 2, though I've gotten pretty far. Or maybe I should play SaGa 3 even though I ... really don't like it that much haha.
I might actually start the TokiMemo play diary this week, too. Especially since I'll probably get my book today. I'm kinda slowing down on the website because I've been feeling burned out and a friend and my therapist recommended I pace myself better and not put too much pressure on myself.
Also, I mentioned that I looked for a job the other day and my therapist was like shocked and seemed hesitant to accept that and was saying more stuff about how I have to do stuff at my own pace.
In one way I still feel kind of... weird/bad/tired about being treated like a "severe" case (IDK if I mentioned this but I was also instructed to take all sharp objects out of my room lololol) but at the same time it's a bit... reassuring/validating that... I'm not just lazy/stupid and I have serious problems that make it difficult for me to find and maintain jobs and complete tasks and maintain interpersonal relationships and stuff.
Oh, Joe was in town this week and we played Catan yesterday and it was fun but a little awkward, and I guess he and his wife got a divorce, but I didn't know, and I asked them if they were planning on having any kids (which I know is an obnoxious question, but we were already talking about kids/pregnancy so it was not like super random?) and then he was like "oh about that" and I felt terrible, but I guess it was a civil parting, they just realized marriage wasn't for them and are still friends and still work/live together? Er, they might not live together anymore, but I think they still work at the same school (idk lmao I don't ask about details on anything so I never know anything).
Anyway, yeah, that was weird, and we talked about Star Trek which is good and now I feel like watching Trek but I don't because I hate watching things and I'm playing like three SaGa games right now and feeling like starting another for fun and starting Tokimemo and like... lol. And I feel like drawing recently, too -- I want to be able to make a coloring book for dens for his birthday, which is over two months away, but making an entire book's worth of drawings could easily take two months or more, so I should get started on it. Probably I should dedicate at least one day a week to it, and I don't want to do it when he's around because I want the contents to be a surprise (though I could easily hide it from him when he's around anyway since it's not like he looks at my computer screen that much and his eyesight is very poor so he hardly can see anything on it anyway, and I can just zoom or minimize when he's near so he can't see what it is... actually I might be more motivated to work on it around him, so... maybe I'll start doing that...)
I'm almost caught back up to where I realized I wasn't taking any screencaps at all in Laura's scenario lol.
I haven't played with Urpina in a couple of days, but I missed out on a bunch of the characters I was planning on having in my final team. I think I may have talked about this already...? So I'm just kinda picking the best from who I do happen to find, and I'm not going to "try" for any characters from here on out. There are just SO many options and so many missable things in this game, which is both good and bad, but I do have a nice team of 9 and am looking for a 'male' mage for the party now, as the only role I don't really have filled. Though I did look through the characters and it seems there's only one even left available, and getting him seems to require some pretty specific choices, so I MIGHT try for him when I get to that turning point, but I'm also not wanting to look at guides much, so...
Also Urpina has like a million endings or something X_X; Leo only had two and it was based solely on your decision just before the end. Urpina's different endings are impacted as early as finishing the little intro chapter of her story it seems.
But I'm really trying not to look at the guide too much lol. I just looked more when I couldn't find the characters in the locations they were supposed to be, and realized I missed out on a lot of stuff.
I might start writing the Laura scenario play diary later today. I have a looootttt to write because I pretty much am going to be done with the entire story except the last couple of adventures lol. I should probably upload the Urpina caps and start on those, too, because it will take forever...
I've been having a hankering to play SaGa 1 or SaGa 2 recently. I want to make play diaries of them eventually, but I don't want to start them right now, so maybe I'll just play through one of them for fun. I've cleared SaGa 1 a few times, but never SaGa 2, though I've gotten pretty far. Or maybe I should play SaGa 3 even though I ... really don't like it that much haha.
I might actually start the TokiMemo play diary this week, too. Especially since I'll probably get my book today. I'm kinda slowing down on the website because I've been feeling burned out and a friend and my therapist recommended I pace myself better and not put too much pressure on myself.
Also, I mentioned that I looked for a job the other day and my therapist was like shocked and seemed hesitant to accept that and was saying more stuff about how I have to do stuff at my own pace.
In one way I still feel kind of... weird/bad/tired about being treated like a "severe" case (IDK if I mentioned this but I was also instructed to take all sharp objects out of my room lololol) but at the same time it's a bit... reassuring/validating that... I'm not just lazy/stupid and I have serious problems that make it difficult for me to find and maintain jobs and complete tasks and maintain interpersonal relationships and stuff.
Oh, Joe was in town this week and we played Catan yesterday and it was fun but a little awkward, and I guess he and his wife got a divorce, but I didn't know, and I asked them if they were planning on having any kids (which I know is an obnoxious question, but we were already talking about kids/pregnancy so it was not like super random?) and then he was like "oh about that" and I felt terrible, but I guess it was a civil parting, they just realized marriage wasn't for them and are still friends and still work/live together? Er, they might not live together anymore, but I think they still work at the same school (idk lmao I don't ask about details on anything so I never know anything).
Anyway, yeah, that was weird, and we talked about Star Trek which is good and now I feel like watching Trek but I don't because I hate watching things and I'm playing like three SaGa games right now and feeling like starting another for fun and starting Tokimemo and like... lol. And I feel like drawing recently, too -- I want to be able to make a coloring book for dens for his birthday, which is over two months away, but making an entire book's worth of drawings could easily take two months or more, so I should get started on it. Probably I should dedicate at least one day a week to it, and I don't want to do it when he's around because I want the contents to be a surprise (though I could easily hide it from him when he's around anyway since it's not like he looks at my computer screen that much and his eyesight is very poor so he hardly can see anything on it anyway, and I can just zoom or minimize when he's near so he can't see what it is... actually I might be more motivated to work on it around him, so... maybe I'll start doing that...)
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Date: 2017-04-11 05:17 pm (UTC)I've had no time to catch up on all your play diaries haha. Once you've got the site up I'll have to peruse them slowly.
Good luck on the gift! Getting motivated is usually the hardest step, in my experience.
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Date: 2017-04-12 12:49 am (UTC)I've done other stuff like teaching, programming, audio transcription... I've also somewhat successfully done art commissions. But I've never been able to keep anything up for very long before being so overwhelmed that I can't eat or sleep or even move.
Though with therapy and medication I'm at least handling everyday nothing better than normal so I don't know what it would be like trying to work again. I might apply at the laundromat, since it's quiet and a place I'm familiar, and I already know the people who work there...
Don't worry about the play diaries, hahaha. But yeah I'm putting the site off a little longer, mostly because there was more work involved then I realized. Well, I guess I'm not really putting it off, I just realized it's going to take longer than I thought. But I have slowed down working on it (I was working like non-stop every day for a while XD) The play diaries part of the site is pretty much done, it just needs some polishing and kind of needs to all be put together. The tutorial thing is not even started yet other than some very basic stuff.
Armic's scenario only had a few unique things about it so his play diary is very short. I've been trying to cram less into each entry, so while it has about as many entries as previous scenarios, they are each shorter than earlier ones so it's not that much content.
Now that I'm in Laura's scenario there's like... hardly even any unique content at this point. Only one character we haven't seen before in the party, and all of the story adventures are pretty similar to subadventures we've seen before, so... XD
I don't even know what I'll do when I get to Ventus XD Just write "you've seen it all before THE END!"
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Date: 2017-04-12 02:45 am (UTC)I have for a long time considered driving a truck, since it's mostly just... sitting alone and driving. But you also have to use the phone a lot which is something I cannot do.
I can do one-on-one stuff OK enough, especially if it's something scripted or prepared, so lecturing/teaching/tutoring work ok. The biggest problem I've had with this (as I've actually done this a couple times) is that actually working for some kind of school/group/place/whatever requires a bunch of certification and degrees, and managing your own tutoring/teaching service is ... really hard, as you essentially have to find clients and "sell" your "service" to them which is uhh lol. I'm also a huge pushover and people are just like "Ummmm well I don't have money this time..." and then I just let them get like $400 in lessons for free because I won't demand payment lol.
Doing art commissions was similar, I ended up getting like $1/hr on average because I would let people essentially cheat me out of money lol.
What would be really cool is if I could actually maintain motivation to work on my own stuff and be able to create things (games, comics, etc) and sell them without having to do it as commissions lol. Of course, that's more of a gamble than a job, but I also feel like if you just keep doing it and do stuff the right way, you can at least scrape by while hoping for a break. I mean, I was able to live completely off commissions for a couple months, and if it wasn't for my lovely brain health I'm sure that "business" would have only grown.