WARMTH LIKE HOME UNAWARES

I had a super weird dream last night but now I can hardly remember any of it. I wanted to write it this morning but I didn't really have time to because I did KA and then took a shower and watched the Colts game and then ... kept doing things basically and forgot about the dream and then JUST REMEMBERED.

But it was another mostly-third-person dream, but this time it was about a boy named Yuki and like, there was some kind of... huge apocalyptic disaster? Like these big waves crashed everywhere and like, idk, destroyed the Earth LOL but it didn't like flood just... everyone died and things were messy looking??? And like, he moved around, and people put potato chip bags in front of houses that no one was occupying, so you could tell if someone was occupying a house because there'd be no chip bag LOL. IDK, it actually made a lot of sense in the dream and was very linear and had a huge story but now I forget all of it but these random details... X_X I wish I could remember it now.

Today I had this SUPER DRAMATIC word problem on KA that literally started with "Only one remains." and I was dying:



I'm almost done with Geometry at this point. I think I'll finish it in a few days. Well, I should finish all the practice in 1-2 days, and then I'll have to do several master challenges to actually 100% it.

I was going to move on to trigonometry, but I think I might go back and pick up all the algebra stuff? I love trig and triangles but I do also love algebra and I feel like it will fill in the squares "in order" on the big map thing.

I started writing the game programming course, but I haven't published anything yet. The first 'project' the course will work through is just a number guessing game. I have multiple ideas for the future projects, so I need to really think about which will be best for learning the next set of concepts.

I wanted to get some drawing done this weekend, too (on the comic) but Dens interrupts me sooooo much that I hardly had time to do anything. Other than that little bit last night I worked on the programming course, this is my first time really having any time to do anything at all this weekend, and I have to go to bed in the next 2 hours lol.

I think I'mma try to stream tomorrow most of the day? Like a 'Halloween special' lmfao. I might play DR2? But IDK how well it will stream. Might be a bit much on the ol' processor. I don't think I really have any other monster/horror-themed games? WAIT LOL I have like RE4 and RE:Rev, PvZ, Afterfall Insanity... XD I also just got Dead Space from Dels, but I don't have the drive space for it right now (I reaaaalllllyyyyy need to clean up my drive but like... there's not much more I can delete?! My drive is just very small lol)

JSB has a new video and it's terrible. But Naoki is in it so I can forgive them. I have been largely unimpressed with JSB for a while now, and then I realize that I only really like a couple of their songs and the only reason I even really like them is because NAOKIIII and Ryuji too I guess. I mean I like all the members but if it was not for Naoki I would never have gotten into them?

DOBERMAN INFINITY has a new song/vid out too and it's... not so great, but there's a long part of nothing but Kubo-C so I can forgive that, too, I guess... But overall I just think the song... doesn't sound good? Like I feel like they're just trying to like... shove lyrics together and whatever, and the raps don't sound rhythmic enough??? And then I don't like the whole contrast with Kazuki's vocals, like... I guess it's supposed to be cool but it's just jarring to me idk. The whole thing just sounds like noise instead of music to me and I don't like it LOL. But Kubo-C! Even Ga Ga summer with its obnoxious and somewhat annoying MV was still fun to listen to. Plus it STARTED with Kubo-C hahaha.

Honestly I'm just generally disappointed by everything LDH/EXILE TRIBE, and I only really follow these groups because I want to perv over hot members??

Morning's new vid is bad, too, lol. It's not horrible, it's just... underwhelming. It's not what I want, I guess XD The song is kinda starting to grow on me (because despite being disappointed in it, I listen to it over and over lol) but I still wouldn't say I really like it? And the video is just... idk, long and annoying. Like haha they are acting like cats why do we need 5 whole minutes of this.

I'm starting to thing Haga is soooo cute though. I really love all of 12ki. I think this is probably my most liked generation overall, of all time. 4ki, 5ki, and 6ki are all really great, too, but... with each of those, there were some members that were like AMAZING BEST GREAT and then others that were really great but not at THAT level, and 12ki is just EVERYONE LOVE WONDERFUL YES

ANGERME is really the only idol group that is actually consistently satisfying me these days LOL. Oh, Country Girls have been on-point, too. And Magnolia Factory but like they haven't been doing much :\

Oh yeah I guess I should talk about the Colts game. But uh. It was just really horrible and sad and I don't even have anything to say??? TY Hilton got hurt and I was so worried. But yeah everyone did bad so I can't even say like 'well at least one of my boyfriends did this cool thing' lol. Actually Eric Walden may have gotten a cool sack or something idk it was just so bad.

The headline on the official website is even "Colts take step back after biggest loss of 2016" AND WE'VE HAD A LOT OF BIG LOSSES so uhhh lol.

While I was watching, I was kinda dicking around on tumblr on my phone and then found that like... it wasn't connecting to the wifi so I used like all my data for the month in like 3 minutes LOL (I don't get a lot of data lol). And I haven't been able to get it to connect to the wifi at all since then? I turned it off earlier and meant to turn it back on to see if that "fixed it" but I forgot to turn it back on oops.

OK, seems to be working now. Weird.

I think I'mma just sleep now lol.

So, a little fooble stuff.

The Colts are such a scary team to watch lmfao. Why do we have to do so bad XD We won, though, today so huzzah XD But there were a lot of moments where I was just like "oh no..."

This was really cool <3 <3 <3 <3

Also Brian Hoyer is a cutie.

Actually, that's about it. Not much happened with any of my other boyfriends besides TY who always does stuff. I didn't watch any other games or highlights or anything because I'm not feeling so up to it.

I did KhanAcademy for the first time in a long time today. I had a ton of notifs because one of my answers on a question got popular and there were a lot of thanks and stuff on it, which was nice.

I want to do things but I have no energy and can't concentrate on anything for more than like 15 seconds. I can't even tell you how many times I've gotten distracted trying to write this short post.

I slept really poorly last night. I don't know why but I just couldn't fall asleep. I wasn't really doing the scared-awake thing either (only like once or twice) but I just felt so uncomfortable. But like, not physically uncomfortable. I was super tired waking up. I'm tired of being tired lol.

I might do Undercity Pharos now.

lol I've failed at updating these last couple of days >_> I didn't write my health journals either. It was pretty standard stuff though so it shouldn't be hard to write those.

Tonight was more foobles. We finally won a game~~~~ It was supposed to be an easier win but we were scraping by lmfao. But uhhh honestly it's to be expected IMO lolol.

Almost all of my boyfriends did great stuff; Erik Walden did a very exciting thing. He had a few great plays today, I was happy XD

Also this <3 TY always does great things tho XD Which is always good but I like it when the less-prolific players get in the highlight reels too xD Would be nice to see more Jack Doyle highlights show up XD He did pretty good today but nothing that would make a highlight reel, sadly...

Also I'm very glad that the NFL has started a YT page and the way they're doing it because they pretty much are just cramming it full of content... They post a bunch of highlights every week, and post legacy content, and some random other stuff... they've even started uploading full games (like past superbowls and famous/exciting games of the past) twice a week. They also have playlists for every team and player that collect all the videos of them so if you have a fav you can go watch it. Well, only players that show up regularly in highlights have playlists.

Also we're the only team that won in the division this week which is good for our standing but sad because I love everyone in our division and I wish we could all win every game somehow even when we play each other and everyone go undefeated LOL

Anyway, watching the Chargers I discovered some lovely faces:

( lots of images )

Oh yeah also today there was a lot of talk of Manti Teo like for the entire first half because he was important and then injured and they just kept mentioning him and like his name is pronounced the same as mine and since they refer to everyone by last name mostly I just kept hearing Teo over and over and like it's so weird because I'm not used to hearing my name??? Like other people probably run across other people with the same name as then but... I never... hear other people named Thaao so it's like so weird feeling LOL

That's about all I have to say on foobles I guess.

Dennis gave me his Dragon Quest IX game and was like 'you should play it' and I was like ;;;;;;;;; and then later I was playing LegLeg and he was like 'oh are you playing DQ????' and I was like ;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; so I ended up playing it...

Generally if people encourage me to play a game it makes me not want to play it LOL but this is the first time Dens has ever recommended or encouraged me to play a game so I feel like I have to try it XD

It's actually really fun though, but like the steal rate is really atrocious?!? Like I seriously would steal like 40-50 times from an enemy and it would fail... and then finally it would succeed and I'd get the common steal, and you seem to get the rare one maybe like 10% of the time??? So it's SUPER obnoxious... but to finish your monster book thing you have to get both the normal and rare drop from every enemy (stealing just has them produce one of their drops) soooo uh yeah. After I finish the area I'm in (one more monster to go XD) I might stop trying to get all the steals and just go on with the game and hope I get an easier way to do it later...? Or at least get to where I can change jobs and change EVERYONE into a thief and learn Steal with everyone... I think it transfers over? Also it's not called Steal it's called like... Halfinch or something, like everything in this game has super weird names and like 95% of it is bad puns...

There are these enemies called... like... Sacksquatch... they are supposed to look like burlap sacks but they look like pizza rolls and every time one pops up in the field, it like falls from the sky and lands on its face so it just looks like someone dropped a pizza roll onto the field from heaven LOL.

The battle choreography in this game is really great. The characters run around during the fights and there's so many little animations. Also when you get a crit or block with your shield, there's this like slight slo-mo effect that is so satisfying XD Like, this is the kind of battle animation/choreography you'd expect from stuff like Paper Mario. Really nice. I mean I guess DQ is like a top franchise so it shouldn't be that surprising, but... XD Final Fantasy is also a big square franchise and their battle choreo is not nearly as interesting. I mean, it's pretty, but it doesn't have the same kind of... satisfying... feel to it? Even UN:Saga which I think has nice battle choreo is nothing close to this XD

The story is pretty cute, it's like just a big series of substories which I think is what DQ is always like, idk (this is my first one besides playing a couple hours of DQ8 but Dens is playing DQ7 and it seems like that too and the little I played of DQ8 seemed like that, so... XD) and the two I've really played through so far have been pretty interesting, albeit silly. Sadly there have been no hot characters yet at all. But it's Akira Toriyama so like the game is just like ... a million clones of the same 5 ugly people and then Mr Satan clones and I will like those when I get to them I guess LOL

But yeah I ended up playing it like all day lol. I probably burned myself out.

I might try to do an Ys Origin Time Attack this week and stream it. Despite being called Time Attack, time is the least concern. It could take ALL day to finish it. Basically, it's a boss rush, and you have to fight all the bosses in a row. You can retry each boss as much as you want, but there's no quicksave/suspend feature, so if you quit the game, you have to start all over from the beginning.

It's not that there's a lot of bosses, it's that bosses in this game are extremely difficult and require a severe level of pattern recognition and precision timing/reaction. Mistakes are heavily punished so you die a LOTTTTT. My last Time Attack took like ... 6-8 hours I think? And there are eight of them, and you have to finish all eight to get an achievement. It's my last achievement I need :P I've finished... two I think? Maybe three. But I'm pretty sure two. I've attempted a couple more but ended up giving up after 4-5 hours or playing all day and still not finishing it and having to quit.

Yeah, I've done 2 so I have 6 more to go... One of those will be fairly easy. There's two for each character, four characters total, and one character is pretty easy because his bosses are easier and he's kinda OP. I already did one of his, though.

But yeah, if I do stream it, my twitch channel is here so you can come watch if you'd like. If you subscribe, turn on the email alert thing or else you'll not get alerts XD

Anyway, I am the tired and I will sleep now. Even though I don't feel like sleeping at all. I'm kinda worked up from today because I didn't get a lot of 'break' lol.

So, I found this super embarrassing thing when I was trying to find clips of the show Matt is on now because I can't watch it because I'm with Dens on Sundays and he doesn't have cable or anything XD But yeah it's horrible and embarrassing and Matt's part is the absolute worst ??? LOL Like he's all trying to be tough like LETS GOWE LETS GOWE but he's just a quiet softie so it's super awkward and weird, and then like his "dancing" is like ???? so wtf??? XDD Also Boomer can't even pronounce 'Hasselbeck' like alskdfjlaskdfjalksdfj

Also Trent Dilfer looks nice. His name has 'DILF' written right in it LOL.

The only clip I could even find was this and it's cool because Matt is cute and Dilf is like "yes yes you are right and best and smartest" LOL

OMGGGG I tried YT and apparently THIS happened just before that HAHAHAH lskdjglksadjglkasdjglkasjdg omgggg poor Boomer XD it kinda stressed me out honestly but also it's funny?? And embarrassing XD

But yeah that's about all I can find, I found a clip of Dilfer saying stupid shit about the Colin Kaepernick thing (and Randy Moss looking PISSED) so I already stopped liking him lol. It's a shame, a cutie baldy but why you gotta be racist?? Ruins any appeal you may have XD Moss is cool tho. I like his eyebrows lmao.

I wanna post about Country Girls's new vid but I'm tired and I wanna post a lot because it's amazing and wonderful LOL but I think I'mma sleep. I need to go to the grocery tomorrow; I ate literally my last bit of food today so I will have nothing but coffee and two Twinkies tomorrow lol. Oh, I do have natto, and I can take my dad's eggs. So I might make myself some breakfast with that (and toast, because my brother has bread LOL yay stealing other people's food XD but I'm allowed to take the eggs and my brother and I share bread so it's all good XD I even was talking to him today and he mentioned that I could eat it XD)

I did play a little more into Innocent Life. The post game is kinda dumb. It will be fun from a gameplay perspective MAYBE, but the story does not get developed anymore. Basically the Fire Spirit wants me to harvest 5000 crops in his wasteland field where you can't use Naoki or the rail system or jewels or anything. And if I don't do it in one year, he'll release an alien invasion on the town??? lol... And everyone is still saying the same dumb stuff they've been saying so you don't even get any more townie dialogue -_-; I can't get Million to take the Cool Pins, even though Gallion keeps saying I need to give Million a fashion item. Though he always seems busy??? But I even went to him at night (with the Cool Pins in my bag) and he wouldn't take them. Maybe I have to get there in the morning? Or when he's on holiday and hanging out with Emma by the wine barrels? IDK...

Playing this has been making me want to play a real, actually good Harvest moon game a lot though. For a bit now... Maybe I'll play something once I finish this?

Though I kinda wanna just... finish this and Setsuna so the only thing I really have to play is Dragon Age? XD So I can kinda play that when I feel like playing something but I don't want to feel like I have games I 'need to finish' right now ?? XD Oh, I guess there's still FFEX too. I kinda forgot since I don't play it on the PC XD I'm close to the end of that, too? At least the story end.

But I kinda wanna stop playing games for now and get back into Rogue Nightmare's development? I don't know if I can mentally handle that right now, though... But I want to at least try. Like I think I could at least work on some of the assets or something right now, even if I couldn't handle programming or designing anything. I have a few characters mostly designed and am in the middle of making battle sprites. I need to rework a lot of the character controller and camera because I'm turning it into a kind of 2.5D game instead of a first-person 3D game... both because the game will play better that way and because I can actually make proper assets for a 2D game lol.

Anyway, I sleep now, I guess.

Soooo from the humble sale I bought a couple games for myself since I haven't really gotten anything for myself in a while and my life has been nothing but suffering for a while now so I treated myself XD I got really cheap things though, along with Tropico 4 which is free.

The games I got were Rochard (which I already have on PS3 but I want it on PC too plus it came with the DLC and art book and it was only like $1 lol) and Pac-Man and the Ghostly Adventure or whatever it's called... the tie-in with the Disney Channel cartoon thing LOLLLL which I... got for a really stupid reason but I also thought it might be easy/relaxing (which it is for the most part, but too tedious to play for a long time at once).

Actually I kinda got both of them for the same reason now that I think about it.

( Rochard )

( Pac-Man Ghostly Adventures )

Also this game is really exciting (er, the football game I mean) !!! I've been kinda slowly writing this entry during breaks (in American football there are constant breaks in the action, it's a lot of start-and-stop lol) and it's just been so fun XD There's still 8 minutes left and I have a feeling it's going to be a fight to the finish. A lot of exciting interceptions and close calls and stuff like that, Denver coming back from being a couple scores behind... but Carolina has been generally performing better and can easily get the lead back.

I don't really root for teams when I watch?? Even when my fav teams are playing, I still get excited when the other team does well and exciting plays happen... I'm completely happy with losing if the game is fun to watch. In the same way, I'm very disappointed in my teams winning if it's just an overwhelming victory. I like seeing exciting matches more than anything XD

omfg I just went to a Pac-Man wiki to figure out the name of the President green thing and this story of this cartoon is wild:

Years ago, Spheros' little brother Betrayus formed a powerful army and threatened to take over Pac-World and stomp out any resistance that stood in his way. This would lead to many casualties (such as the massacre of the Yellow Ones),

"masscare of the Yellow Ones" wtffff and I'm pretty sure these means yellow Pacs, like Pac-Man LOL.

Oh yeah, today was the day the roster had to be down to the appropriate number of players. Southward is sticking around, though Mitchell Van Dyk was booted.

When a tab misbehaves and causes the browser to crash in Edge, it only crashes that one tab. The rest of your tabs and the browser itself stay open. That's... pretty cool?

I'm kinda trying to get used to edge for the reward points... and FireFox has been kinda mean to me recently anyway.

The second half the game was marginally more interesting than the first half, and I got to see Southward several times lol. He's doing really well, so I'm happy about that. And Van Dyk seems to have recovered from his injury and was playing again, too. And didn't get injured this time lol.

Anthony Castonzo, as much as I love him, is... often disappointing??? lol

I played a few minutes of this game called Reigns and it's really weird but funny and interesting. It's kinda hard though.

My stummy kinda hurts and I'm tired, but I can't go to bed yet. Maybe I'll just try to nap in this chair.

I've been wanting to complain about this somewhere for a while now, but I hate how GameFAQs has changed its timestamps on the boards to relative time? Like, my board list now says the last post was stuff like "2 days ago" or whatever, and that's a LOT harder for me to read? Like, it takes me WAY longer to look through the list of boards and see if any have updated since I was last on. When it used to just give the exact date/time of the most recent post, I could pretty much scan the whole list and instantly recognize updated boards. Now I have to slowly go through and think about each relative time. And since it gets less reliable the longer the time is ("____ days" can be within a range of many hours, "_____ weeks" can be within a range of many days) I'm not really sure if there's actually a new post or not and just have to go to the board to check and it's frustrating. I wonder if there's a way in the settings to change it back? I didn't even look lol.

I've been wanting to play Tokimeki Memorial a lot recently... Maybe I'll do a playthrough this week when I'm at home of TM3? I still need to get Tachibana's confession since I got too attached to Makihara last time and accidentally got hers instead lol.

ETA: The GameFAQs thing was an easy fix in the settings lmfao. There's actually a ton of new settings; it's pretty cool.