Yeahhhh I do a lot of stuff like that, too. In college I always used this random public toilet on another floor because like no one knew it existed, it was like in the lobby to the building but outside of the locked doors that you needed a keycard to get in so like... I was the only person who used it so it was quiet and clean always XD And I didn't have to walk past people or be in a restroom with other people (because we had dorm suites where like four dorms shared a bathroom, and it even had PUBLIC SHOWERS so you had to bathe in front of people??????????????????????? I bathed at like 4AM lol.
But yeah living with other people is hell and I wish I could just live alone but I am not competent or wealthy enough for that lol.
I'm doing a callisthenic workout thing three times a week and like dance aerobics the other three days (and nothing on Fridays). The callisthenic thing is this which was ridiculously difficult and I could barely make it even through one circuit, but now I do three and am fine. The dancing is just stupid stuff to keep me active between Sparty days really (I just go along with a parapara playlist lmao).
And yeah IDK either like... my therapist even gave me a flow chart lmaooooo and it's like "is this fear based on an actual threat?" and stuff, and essentially it just boils down to if it's not or there's nothing you can do, just PRETEND NOT TO BE ANXIOUS and I'm like wtf I can't do that???
And uh sometimes I get hung up too because like... I think being afraid to go somewhere that a person might talk to me is a rational fear because a person very well indeed may talk to me?? But then am I supposed to also analyze if being talked to is a rational fear? And like I feel like I can just keep "chaining" fears and make everything seem irrational, even legitimate fears honestly like... I'll just end up getting existential or nihilistic but STILL ANXIOUS LMAO
The flow chart thing has actually helped calm me down though when I have like... random no-reason anxiety, though. Like just wake up anxious about THE THING but there's not actually a thing.
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Date: 2017-04-16 06:47 pm (UTC)But yeah living with other people is hell and I wish I could just live alone but I am not competent or wealthy enough for that lol.
I'm doing a callisthenic workout thing three times a week and like dance aerobics the other three days (and nothing on Fridays). The callisthenic thing is this which was ridiculously difficult and I could barely make it even through one circuit, but now I do three and am fine. The dancing is just stupid stuff to keep me active between Sparty days really (I just go along with a parapara playlist lmao).
And yeah IDK either like... my therapist even gave me a flow chart lmaooooo and it's like "is this fear based on an actual threat?" and stuff, and essentially it just boils down to if it's not or there's nothing you can do, just PRETEND NOT TO BE ANXIOUS and I'm like wtf I can't do that???
And uh sometimes I get hung up too because like... I think being afraid to go somewhere that a person might talk to me is a rational fear because a person very well indeed may talk to me?? But then am I supposed to also analyze if being talked to is a rational fear? And like I feel like I can just keep "chaining" fears and make everything seem irrational, even legitimate fears honestly like... I'll just end up getting existential or nihilistic but STILL ANXIOUS LMAO
The flow chart thing has actually helped calm me down though when I have like... random no-reason anxiety, though. Like just wake up anxious about THE THING but there's not actually a thing.