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Oh yeah, I watched the Colts game today, and all my boyfriends got at least 1 good play so I was happy with that (actually they all got like literally one except Hilton who always gets lots). Overall I think we did... okay... but not really that good. I was kinda disappointed and it was another loss. I don't really have a lot to say about it, I guess.

Here's a really cool thing that happened, though. I'm still really impressed by it. To imagine all the quick thinking and body control that went into that very brief moment... it's amazing XD

Jaguars had a miserable game today hahaha.

Wish I could have seen the Tennessee game... seemed pretty exciting?

Texans won again so they're leading the division. Not a lot of highlights from that game, it seems, though, so IDK what it was like.

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Well, I am at the doctor's office. Now that I am actually HERE I am feeling significantly less anxious. I have my list of things, my paperwork is done... Pretty much everything from here on out is waiting and following directions, which is easy for me? I think at this point I largely know what to expect, I guess. Stuff like finding a new building and talking to a receptionist are the hardest part.

I am a bit worried I might not get to talk about the things I want to talk about? But I don't think it will really be a problem I guess. If somehow I don't manage to talk about it, there is always the self-referral route (which very surprisingly, is covered by my insurance) or making another appointment, I guess.

My hands are still really sweaty and holding my phone is not helping hahaha. But it is helping me stay calm. I feel like I need to sneeze but I don't want to sneeze around people. There are like 6 other people in the lobby here?! And like I sat off in an area by myself (it is kinda L-shaped and I am in the other corner than everyone was when I got here) and then someone came and sat right next to me??? Oh, nvm, I just realized they are with someone who is in a wheelchair and the space next to this row of chairs is empty so it is good for wheelchairs. I guess I picked a bad spot haha.

My bag kind of smells bad. I mean it is a bag so I have never washed it? I never really thought about it. Maybe I should try to wash it...? It is old and falling apart though (like Jennifer's jacket) so I don't want it to just like get shredded in a washing machine?

I am worried my breath will smell bad even though I brushed like 3 times this morning before coming. I have gum but I don't want to chew it and have to spit it out later because I don't want to ask where a trash can is and I don't want to just spit it in there without like a tissue or something. Oh, I guess I would have the wrapper.

Hmm, I should probably stop using my phone and bring up my list, since I never wrote it on paper. I don't want my phone battery to die. Not that I am very worried about that, since it had full charge when I got here. Lol at this point I am just rambling to stay calm? I am starting to get a little more anxious. Not nearly as bad as I was before getting here or leading up to today (I have pretty much been non-stop anxious for like a month lol...)

I really wish there wasn't a tv playing in here lol. I have been thinking about trying to find earplugs and those like sound-cancelling ear...cover things (like looks like headphones/earmuffs but idk what it is called) since sound sensitivity is a big thing to me. Ah, less than 10 minutes left--!!

I am kinda excited about seeing the doctor actually. It has been since I was a child though. I think I will actually get off the phone now because my hands are getting uncomfortable. Should have charged the Surface lolol. (omfg now someone is talking kinda loud on the phone and it is making me really anxious X_X It is like physically painful?)