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Oct. 6th, 2016 08:47 pmAnyway, ranting aside, I at least was able to feed myself today. At times I thought I was not going to be able to. It's weird -- I woke up feeling positive and ate breakfast and everything and then all of a sudden just felt so demotivated and worthless for the rest of the day. Started feeling anxious about doing even the most basic tasks. I wanted to draw and stuff today but I couldn't even bring myself to play a game. It's 8PM now and I haven't done anything.
I think I'm gonna go take a shower and trim my beard. I really don't feel like it but I feel like I can, and I should, and it might help me feel better somehow. I think I'm just going to do a little trim... I'm thinking of trying to grow my beard out. Like as in big.
I might stream Stardew Valley later? It would be nice to talk to people who are generally pleasant I think lol. I know no one here comes to my streams but it's probably one of the best/only ways to actively communicate with me because I actually feel comfortable there? And I always appreciate people coming to hang out in the chat. Everyone who hangs out on my channel is so nice and it's usually a small crowd (it can get noisy/big, but usually it's just like 5-10 people, though since I started streaming again there's usually only 1-3 people at a time now lol).
OK I took a shower. I forgot to post this. I feel a little better because my beard looks nice. I'm fortunate that I don't have a problem with self-image. I really like the way I look. And maybe my beard look pretty is comforting lol. I hate taking showers though. I hate going between wet and dry (either direction).
Anyway, still think I'll stream in a bit.
Here is the link if you wanna watch. I tend to go for a while. tonight I'll probably give up early or feel shitty enough to stay up super late playing so who knows!!!!!!!!
I think I'm gonna go take a shower and trim my beard. I really don't feel like it but I feel like I can, and I should, and it might help me feel better somehow. I think I'm just going to do a little trim... I'm thinking of trying to grow my beard out. Like as in big.
I might stream Stardew Valley later? It would be nice to talk to people who are generally pleasant I think lol. I know no one here comes to my streams but it's probably one of the best/only ways to actively communicate with me because I actually feel comfortable there? And I always appreciate people coming to hang out in the chat. Everyone who hangs out on my channel is so nice and it's usually a small crowd (it can get noisy/big, but usually it's just like 5-10 people, though since I started streaming again there's usually only 1-3 people at a time now lol).
OK I took a shower. I forgot to post this. I feel a little better because my beard looks nice. I'm fortunate that I don't have a problem with self-image. I really like the way I look. And maybe my beard look pretty is comforting lol. I hate taking showers though. I hate going between wet and dry (either direction).
Anyway, still think I'll stream in a bit.
Here is the link if you wanna watch. I tend to go for a while. tonight I'll probably give up early or feel shitty enough to stay up super late playing so who knows!!!!!!!!
