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Sep. 6th, 2016
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Sep. 6th, 2016 04:00 pmMy dad is watching a movie and Alex Trebek is in it and has the mustache and big glasses *_* I miss this look so much... This is actually a pretty famous movie I think? But I don't know movies so idk LOL
But uh anyway they are repairing the ceiling where the water damage was in our apartment, and they even are doing my room which wasn't part of the current damage or whatever. Anyway, it's really uncomfortable having all these people in the apartment (there are like three people lol) and it's making me really dizzy.
OK they are gone, I just kinda left this tab sitting here for a while lol.
I still feel really stressed out. I need to move back into my room though.
Also why do I have a paid account????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
But uh anyway they are repairing the ceiling where the water damage was in our apartment, and they even are doing my room which wasn't part of the current damage or whatever. Anyway, it's really uncomfortable having all these people in the apartment (there are like three people lol) and it's making me really dizzy.
OK they are gone, I just kinda left this tab sitting here for a while lol.
I still feel really stressed out. I need to move back into my room though.
Also why do I have a paid account????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
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Sep. 6th, 2016 05:43 pmAnyway, I just kind of suddenly was overcome with a really... intense but surreal ... loneliness? I don't know if loneliness is the right word, but it was a feeling of being alone...? But not desiring to be not alone LOL. Like, generally I feel loneliness is a desire to be with others or have other people in your life, like it's a sort of longing feeling.
This wasn't like that. This was more like a sudden and sad realization that I was alone, but also a sort of... accepting of that idea? Like I felt like, this was the moving on part.
But it's surreal because it felt like this was a moment in a game or movie or something, not that it was actually something I should be feeling??????????? But it's a really strong feeling and I'm like... still kind of feeling it.
Also, I can't believe there was a time I paid $10/mo for an LJ premium account lololol.
This wasn't like that. This was more like a sudden and sad realization that I was alone, but also a sort of... accepting of that idea? Like I felt like, this was the moving on part.
But it's surreal because it felt like this was a moment in a game or movie or something, not that it was actually something I should be feeling??????????? But it's a really strong feeling and I'm like... still kind of feeling it.
Also, I can't believe there was a time I paid $10/mo for an LJ premium account lololol.
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Sep. 6th, 2016 06:30 pmSo, after I got over my weird little episode from the last post, I was watching Morning videos -- actually, I specifically was looking for some of those solo videos they do where like... they make versions of the music video where they just take the long cut they used for each member and put it to the music and make it like "solo version" of the video for them, because I was going to post that and say I wish they made J Soul vids like that because I want Naoki solo vids...
But then I saw this and was like "ooh 2016 performance" and from the title you would think it's just a regular performance but... they're like, honoring the memory of the crying guy's daughter who had died young and dreamed of being in Morning when she grew up and like... I was really not prepared for that laksdjflaskdjflaskdfjaslkdfjasldkfj