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[marchionessofmustache]

Well, I posted about it on FB but doctor went well. It's been quite a ride getting to this point but I got there. There's still a lot to do but I feel accomplished.

I'm going to get tested for a lot of things but for now I guess just working on lifestyle changes a bit at a time, and trying out a medication for now that might?? help with anxiety?? Though I'm not sure. I'm going to try to start it tomorrow. The doctor wasn't particularly adamant about me trying it but said I could if I wanted to, and to just stop if it isn't helpful or if there's bad things lol.

I still have never learned how to swallow pills though...?! So I'm not sure what I'm going to do. I'll cross that hurdle tomorrow I guess.

I played FFEX today a lot and I cleared the game, among other things. Apparently it is required of me to watch the credits roll and listen to the faint, poor-quality noise coming out of the 3DS that I can barely hear and I should feel bad for not wanting to replay the whole ending thing again right this moment even after playing it pretty much all day and finally stopping... I think this kind of guilt/pressure is a big reason why I don't like to play this game so much because the game is a source of stress instead of entertainment lol. I cleared the game so IDK how motivated I will be to continue XD At least after clearing it I kept playing and wanted to try collecting more things and going on (there's a ton of post-game content) but now that I have Obligations™ with the game I feel demotivated to keep playing XD

Other than that I didn't do much today? I had a pizza? Going to the doctor was kind of exhausting honestly. Plus all the walking. It's kind of a far walk back. And I had to stop at the drug store and the grocery on the way back.

Anyway I'm going to at least work on sleeping well (IDK how I can really improve this; I already do all the things you're 'supposed' to do) and trying to do some exercise everyday, and keep a health journal... probably here but in private posts. I wasn't told to do that but I just want to do it myself, I guess.

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[thenicochan.livejournal.com]

I'm glad to hear the doctor went well! I've been cycling through doctor visits lately, and so I can relate on how anxious/exhausting they can be. I actually couldn't swallow pills well into adulthood, but then one day I just...suddenly could. It was crazy! I have some trouble now with my brand new medicine because the pills are literally the largest I have ever seen, so now what I do is take a deep breath to calm myself as much as possible. Once I'm feeling pretty calm, I'll get the pill out and put it in my hand. Then I'll take a swig of water and take another deep breath, then I put the pill in my mouth and try to focus on remaining calm and just swallowing. The last bit is the hardest, of course, but if I'm calm and relaxed then it tends to go well. Try to find a system that works for you! I definitely recommend taking a deep breath before even pulling the pill out tho. It'll preemptively help some of that anxiety that just holding the pill gives.

[thaao.livejournal.com]

Thanks, I'm actually trying to do this right now. Been at it for over an hour :,)

My problem isn't so much that I'm anxious or scared about it, but that I just don't know... how... to swallow it?? I know that sounds weird but I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do. I only understand how to swallow things that are liquid lol??? I've tried every 'trick' and method I can find but... they all seem to be about relaxing yourself/relaxing your throat which is not my problem I don't think???

IDK, I'm gonna post about it on fb and hopefully someone will have an answer. Not holding my breath though XD